Novelist / Story Coach / Observer — Fiction rooted in Boaz, Alabama
Author: Richard L. Fricks
Richard L. Fricks is a novelist, former attorney and CPA, Fictionary Certified StoryCoach Editor, and creator of The Pencil-Driven Life. He lives in rural North Alabama near Boaz, where much of his fiction and reflection remain rooted. His work explores story, inherited purpose, faith and doubt, family pressure, moral contradiction, consciousness, ordinary life, and the practice of beginning again with a pencil.
Biking is something else I both love and hate. It takes a lot of effort but does provide good exercise and most days over an hour to listen to a good book or podcast. I especially like having ridden.
Here’s my bike, a Rockhopper by Specialized. I purchased it November 2021 from Venture Out in Guntersville; Mike is top notch! So is the bike, and the ‘old’ man seat I salvaged from an old Walmart bike.
According to the devout, evidence for their god is so obvious, “I feel Jesus in my heart!” “Just open the Bible, it’s right there.” “People all over the world have seen visions of the Virgin Mary.” “Every day I receive guidance from my god in prayer.” “The holy spirit fills me with joy during Sunday worship.”
Please note these claims are usually made by people who have been groomed from a very young age to accept what they’re been told by preachers and priests. Or maybe they converted to Christianity as adults—which is no surprise, since the marketing of Jesus is a multi-billion-dollar business. There are thousands of churches ready to welcome converts into their grooming communities.
It doesn’t take much thought to see the doubtful quality of these pretend examples of evidence. Devout Jews and Muslims, for example, don’t feel Jesus in their hearts—they were trained much differently. Nor do devout Jews or Muslims see much evidence for god in the New Testament—it fails utterly as their scripture. It’s very common for Protestants to ridicule the very idea of the Virgin Mary showing up around the world: all those visions are obviously Catholic delusions. Devout theists of so many varieties receive very different “guidance” during their prayer experiences; for example, on any major social issue, theists will tell us their god has offered conflicting advice. And the joy derived from worship services? That especially is derived from years of careful grooming and conditioning.
So what’s going on here? Theists themselves deny/doubt the “evidence” that other theists brag about! In fact, there is scandalous disagreement about god among the world’s most devout, fervent theists—because they’re not using valid data in depicting their god. Full Stop: when we ask for evidence for god(s), we want to see reliable, verifiable, objective evidence. Sentiments about Jesus, confidence in the Bible, visions, prayers, worship emotion simply do not qualify.
Reliance on the Bible is especially misplaced. In an article published here on 30 June, What Would Convince Us Christianity Is True?, John Loftus asks readers to consider the problems historians face when they evaluate Matthew’s account of the Virgin Birth. Here’s what we read in Matthew 1:18-20:
“When his mother Mary had been engaged to Joseph, but before they lived together, she was found to be pregnant from the Holy Spirit. Her husband Joseph, being a righteous man and unwilling to expose her to public disgrace, planned to divorce her quietly. But just when he had resolved to do this, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream and said, ‘Joseph, son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary as your wife, for the child conceived in her is from the Holy Spirit.’”
How would the author of Matthew’s gospel—writing perhaps eighty years after the conception of Jesus—know any of this information? What were his sources? Historians look for contemporaneous documentation, i.e., records that were made very close to the time of events described. My question has always been: did Joseph keep a diary—in which he wrote about his dreams—and, if so, how could Matthew have accessed such a diary? It’s much more likely that Matthew belonged to a community of Jesus believers in which this tale had been handed down for a couple of generations. Loftus correctly calls this “2nd 3rd 4th 5th handed down testimony.” And this is crucial, as Loftus points out:
“Christian believers are faced with a serious dilemma. If this is the kind of research that went into writing the Gospel of Matthew—by taking Mary’s word and Joseph’s dream as evidence—then we shouldn’t believe anything else we find in that Gospel without corroborating objective evidence. The lack of evidence for Mary’s story speaks directly to the credibility of the Gospel narrative as a whole.”
Moreover, dreams fail utterly as reliable, verifiable evidence. Loftus quotes the skepticism voiced by Thomas Hobbs (1588-1679): “For a man to say God hath spoken to him in a Dream, is no more than to say he dreamed that God spake to him; which is not of force to win belief from any man.”
It’s also just a fact that the virgin birth of Jesus is a minority opinion in the New Testament. It’s not found in Mark’s gospel, and the author of John’s gospel probably saw no need for it whatever. His Jesus had been present at creation, so his divine status was beyond reproach. Nor do we find virgin birth mentioned in the epistles. Would it have meant anything at all to the apostle Paul, for whom the resurrection was essential event?
Since virgin birth—that is, a woman impregnated by a god—was a common theme in myths about heroes in the ancient world, we can suspect that Matthew and Luke thought that virgin birth would give a boost to their hero.
No matter where we turn in the gospels, we run into the lack of contemporaneous documentation, a missing element that doesn’t seem to bother lay people at all: they’ve been trained not to evaluate the gospels critically, skeptically. Question everything is not what they’ve been taught. The clergy know very well there’s too much danger in that approach.
Loftus forcefully drives home the point:
“Once honest inquirers admit the objective evidence doesn’t exist, they should stop complaining and be honest about its absence. It’s that simple. Since reasonable people need this evidence, God is to be blamed for not providing it. Why would a God create us as reasonable people and then not provide what reasonable people need? Reasonable people should always think about these matters in accordance to the probabilities based on the strength of the objective evidence.”
Loftus also provides a link in this article to one he wrote in 2017, What Would Convince Atheists to Become Christians: Four Definitive Links!Here he calls believers to account for not believing in gods other than their own, for example Allah or the ancient Jewish god, Adonai—precisely because there’s no evidence for them. Years ago, in conversation with a Catholic friend, he protested that he wasn’t an atheist. I pointed out that he indeed was. Did he believe in Neptune or Poseidon, gods of seas? No, he had been groomed to believe in Yahweh—although Christianity has abandoned that name for the god of the Bible.
On top of this huge embarrassment—that verifiable, reliable, objective evidence is missing—there have been so many tragic events that reduce the probability of a caring, powerful god to zero, as Loftus notes:
“God could’ve stopped the underwater earthquake that caused the 2004 Indian Ocean tsunami before it happened, thus saving a quarter of a million lives. Then, with a perpetual miracle God could’ve kept it from ever happening in the future. If God did this, none of us would ever know that he did. Yet he didn’t do it. Since there are millions of clear instances like this one, where a theistic God didn’t alleviate horrendous suffering even though he could do so without being detected, we can reasonably conclude that a God who hides himself doesn’t exist. If nothing else, a God who doesn’t do anything about the most horrendous cases of suffering doesn’t do anything about the lesser cases of suffering either, or involve himself in our lives.”
Devout believers may be absolutely sure that their god involves himself in their lives, but without reliable, verifiable, objective evidence that this is the case, we are entitled to suspect pathetic wishful thinking. And some of the devout who get hit hard by life may come to doubt it themselves. Seventy-nine years ago, 462 women and children were murdered in a church in the village Oradour-sur-Glane in rural France, causing major slippage in belief in a good, caring god. Such a horror just didn’t make sense in the context of Christian theology.
The wars of the last century totally destroy god-is-good theology. Tens of millions of people were killed—on the battlefields and in cities that were heavily bombed during the Second World War, e.g., the blitz in England, the fire-bombing of Dresden, the atomic bombs dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki. In December 1941, 50,000 people starved to death during the siege of Leningrad, six million people were murdered in the Holocaust, one of the most thoroughly documented crimes in
human history. How does god-is-good theology survive? Primarily, I suppose, because the devout aren’t supposed to think about these events—nor are they asked to consider the devastating implications.
In his 2017 essay, Loftus provided the link to an essay by Daniel Bastian, What Would Convince You? Loftus describes this “as the most comprehensive list of answers I’ve found”—that is, reasons for giving up god-belief. Bastian’s essay is indeed worth careful study and reflection. Just a couple of excerpts:
“In a world where Christians and other monotheists profess belief in a meddler god who influenced ancient texts, answers prayers, appoints semi-sane politicians to run for office, and worked all manner of miracles throughout history, the utter vacuum of evidence for such assertions begins to speak volumes.”
“…given the extraordinary claims made on its behalf, the Bible should exhibit an ethical blueprint that transcends the rate of cultural evolution observed across history. Yet on issues such as slavery, the status of women, penalties for various innocuous (and imaginary) crimes, and the treatment of unbelievers, the biblical texts are found to be par for the Bronze Age course.”
Bastian also takes aim at the weaknesses of the gospels, i.e., their failure to provide credible information about Jesus. Why couldn’t a competent god have done better?
As a preface to his presentation of twenty realities that undermine theism, Bastian notes: “My personal view is that a wider appreciation of reality reveals a universe that does not appear the way we would expect if theism were true, leaving non-belief as a supremely rational position to hold.”
The impact of all twenty is devastating, or as Loftus puts it: “Read ’em and weep Christians. Ya got nothing. You’ll have to whine about something else from now on.”
What do Christians claim as the One True Faith? That their god required a human sacrifice to enable him to forgive sin, and that magic potions play a role in winning eternal life, i.e., eating the flesh of the human sacrifice and drinking his blood (see John 6:53-56). How crazy can you get? Loftus quotes anthropology professor James T. Houk, “Virtually anything and everything, no matter how absurd, inane, or ridiculous, has been believed or claimed to be true at one time or another by somebody, somewhere in the name of faith.”
Loftus’ parting shot: “This is exactly what we find when Christians believe on less than sufficient objective evidence.”
David Madison was a pastor in the Methodist Church for nine years, and has a PhD in Biblical Studies from Boston University. He is the author of two books, Ten Tough Problems in Christian Thought and Belief: a Minister-Turned-Atheist Shows Why You Should Ditch the Faith, (2016; 2018 Foreword by John Loftus)now being reissued in a new series titled, Ten Tough Problems in Christian Belief, Book 1: Guessing About God) and Ten Things Christians Wish Jesus Hadn’t Taught: And Other Reasons to Question His Words (2021). The Spanish translation of this book is also now available.
His YouTube channel is here. He has written for the Debunking Christianity Blog since 2016.
Inside her bathroom, upstairs, Lillian removed the sales tag from a new jogging suit. She laughed to herself, returning the scissors to the top drawer, and stealing a quick glance in the large mirror above the vanity. “Oh boy, I needed that,” she whispered to herself. “Aging is a bitch.” She was naked other than a bikini bra and panties. Stepping into her sweatpants, she moved closer to the mirror. Gone were the firm boobs and abs. Gone was her curvaceous figure of long ago. Even her bright blue eyes were growing darker, sadder. “I need to jog for sure, maybe begin with a daily walk down Skyhaven Drive. Sixty-six is not too late for some radical change.” Again, whispering aloud, then standing mum. She imagined it would take weeks before she could jog back to the Lodge from the foot of the Drive. Hate was the only word she could think of to describe how she felt about the Lodge and Skyhaven.
After dressing, she combed her silky brown hair (Camilla, her hairdresser, hid the gray) and heard the front door chime. Ray’s voice thundered and floated upwards throughout the great room and its twenty-four feet ceiling. It also slithered through the opened bathroom door. “Let’s have a drink.” She knew he had been at Attorney Wright’s office all day with the real estate closings, even though it wasn’t necessary. Archer, Inc. was leasing the property from the City.
But she didn’t want a drink. She’d rather, well, what? Take a jog? A walk would be more practical. Anything except playing happy with Ray. A second before announcing her declination, Lillian heard a second voice.
“How about some bourbon? We deserve an entire bottle.” It had to be Mayor King. He, like Ray, had spent all day in Guntersville, just to make sure none of the property owners got cold feet. They hadn’t. All had gone as planned. Attorney Wright had even said he was certain Judge Broadside would grant the City’s motion. Clearing the way to acquire the Hunt House.
“Jack and Coke, okay?” Ray’s favorite. Lillian eased to the bathroom door. If he stayed downstairs, he couldn’t see her. She wondered if he knew she was home. But how could he? An hour ago, she had dropped off her Lincoln Aviator at Alexander Ford for service and to investigate that strange grinding noise when she braked. Kyla, her friend, had driven her home and had left only a few minutes ago, after coming inside to borrow Lillian’s copy of Grisham’s new book.
“Where’s Lillian?” Ted didn’t care for Ray’s wife, but he certainly cared about privacy.
“She must still be with Kyla. She’s not here. Her car wasn’t in the driveway or garage.” Ray said from the bar, ice cubes clattering.
“Is she liking this place any better?” Ray had shared Lillian’s dissatisfaction over their move six months ago from their home in Country Club. He knew it was the Lodge’s history. Two years ago, local entrepreneur and City council member Wiley Jones was murdered upstairs inside his study. Lillian was standing less than twenty-five feet from where it happened. A door on the other side of her bathroom led inside a walk-in closet and on to another door and secret room, one Mr. Jones had used as a private office. His wife, Linda, had found him tied to his desk chair, his brains everywhere.
“Not really. I’m hoping the renovation of Wiley’s hideaway will solve the problem.” It will, Lillian thought, anything to have her own space: large bath and bedroom with private balcony, and the huge hideaway where she could read and scribble. And anything to avoid sleeping with Ray in the giant master bedroom downstairs.
Lillian eased through the bathroom door onto the landing. She peeked over the railing and saw Ray sitting in his favorite chair with Ted standing, backed up to the dormant fireplace. She quickly retreated when she imagined Ted’s eyes looking straight at her.
“We still set to sign on the fifteenth?” Ted was excited. Ray’s in-progress development was the City’s fifth major project since he’d become mayor in 2016. Old Mill Park, the new recreational center, the downtown renovation, and the high school’s Fine Arts Center were the other four (although the school board was due more credit for the latter). Once completed, Ray’s development, Rylan’s, with its thirty retail stores, would be the most expensive investment in Boaz since the outlets in the late 80s.
“Probably. My attorney’s reviewing the lease agreement. He says it’s imperative we wait until the city acquires the Hunt House. None of my cajoling has changed his mind.” The attorney wasn’t the only holdout. Ray himself had no interest in going forward unless he controlled the entire block.
“That’s nearly two weeks. Rob will sign the deed. He’ll have no choice.”
“You’re assuming the Judge will get on board.”
“I don’t think he has a choice either. I assume you’ve been reading the community anger from the Reporter’s article. Lillian had read every letter to the editor and Facebook comment since last Thursday’s newspaper. She was angry the Sand Mountain Reporter had been so open about Rob and Rosa’s opposition. Many online commenters expressed their thoughts with vitriolic terms: “the Kern’s don’t love Boaz”; “they are greedy”, and on and on with the same negative theme. But Lillian knew the true reason Rob was so adamant, even if every other citizen except Ray didn’t have a clue. Now that Ray’s mother was dead, the group who knew about Ray and Rachel’s pregnancy and abortion grew even smaller: Ray, his semi-senile father, Rob and Rosa, and possibly Lee. But he was just a guess. The group’s remaining member was herself, but that was her secret.
For the next several minutes, Ted responded to Ray’s question concerning additional parking. The mayor was confident the city would find the funding needed to acquire the block due west of Rylan’s. The deteriorating property contained one abandoned residence and three buildings whose glory had long passed. Built in the mid-fifties, Cox Chevrolet, and Jack Oliver Ford had once been the heartbeat of North Main Street. Now, the crumbling buildings barely survived. The old Ford place was now a warehouse of sorts, mostly junk. A Hispanic church and a Mexican restaurant leased the two Cox buildings from an out-of-town great-granddaughter. Making the City more ‘American,’ as Ted described it, had been a vibrant but unspoken goal of the four-year mayor.
Lillian got bored and retreated inside the bath. She lowered the commode lid and sat. She could still hear voices but was free of words. The two egoists were reviling for many reasons, least of which was their hypocrisy. She wasted thoughts comparing the Sunday Ray with the every-other-day Ray. Chairman of Deacons and Men’s Sunday School teacher at First Baptist Church of Christ. That’s Sunday Ray. Chasing women and money was the every-other-day Ray.
Finally, a Crimson Tide ring tone erupted. It had to be Ted’s cell. Ray normally set his to vibrate. Another minute, more voices, and the front door chime. Lillian rose and walked to the landing. Both men were walking outside. This was her chance. She hurried down the winding staircase, across the great room, and out the back door. A few seconds later, she descended eight steps, turned left to the patio and outdoor kitchen, and sat in a chaise lounge.
***
Lillian dialed Kyla, but the call went to voice mail. Before the Facebook APP opened, Ray descended the back porch stairs.
“I didn’t know you were here.”
“Kyla dropped me off. I came here to read and enjoy the view.” Lillian kept a novel or two in a bottom cabinet next to the char grill. The Lodge, constructed of cypress wood, river rock, and glass, sat perched atop the highest point in the county, just beyond the dead end of Skyhaven Drive. The valley below was all forest. It had been a brilliant fall. Red, yellow, brown, and orange still glowed, even glistened, for miles and miles.
“I’ll grill some steaks.” Ray said, walking to the refrigerator, satisfied with Lillian’s response.
“Sounds good. I’m hungry. If it’s okay, let’s eat inside. I’m freezing.” It was early November and one week into daylight savings time. It would be dark in twenty minutes.
Lillian’s cell beeped with a text notification. “I’m putting up groceries. Will call in a few. I hate Walmart.” Kyla had seen the missed call.
“Wait thirty minutes. I’m about to eat dinner. With Ray.” Lillian responded, regretting not having her car, but resigning herself to an evening spent upstairs, talking with her childhood friend.
Kyla Harding was Lee’s younger sister. By one year. Lillian and Kyla had been virtually inseparable until she went away to college and a career in marketing. Six weeks ago, the Coca Cola corporation executive retired and returned to Boaz, to Kyla and Lee’s home place. It had been a tough decision for the never-married Kyla. Not that she didn’t love the cozy farmhouse, barn, and pond centered on forty acres off McVille Road. It was the death of her and Lee’s parents that haunted her. No one, especially an eighty-five-year-old couple, should die in a car wreck.
“You want a salad?” One good thing about Ray was his cooking skills. He fashioned himself a chef. The Lodge’s outdoor kitchen was another reason he’d bought the Lodge. It provided a powerful daily temptation. The kitchen’s semi-circle design displayed a combination of cypress cabinets and ten stainless appliances: two stoves, three grills, an offset smoker, a warming cabinet, a double-door refrigerator, a single door freezer, and a custom designed ten-foot steam table. The lone non-stainless grill was a Blackstone. This eccentric home setup had always motivated Ray to keep a generous supply of pork, beef, chicken, fish, and lamb either fresh or frozen. When he was in town, he grilled something every day, some days he even cooked breakfast on the Blackstone.
“Caesar’s. With Vinaigrette.” Ray nodded his head and turned his attention back to the steaks. The days were long gone when she would have gotten up and walked over and wrapped her arms around the tall and dark-haired man with muscular arms and ribbed abs. Now, it wasn’t just the extra pounds and semi-bent back (post, 2 surgeries). It was the barren desert that lay between them. Lillian pushed aside memories of Ray’s multiple affairs and her own midnight investigations.
Inside, after the rib-eye and salad, and a painfully slow glass of white wine, Lillian excused herself to read and walked upstairs. If she had to hear more about the Rylan’s chain, she would puke.
Lillian lay across her bed, opened The Pelican Brief, and adjusted her reading lamp. It was John Grisham’s third novel, first published in 1994. Darby Shaw was an amazing woman, albeit wholly fictional. Three weeks ago, Lillian had started re-reading her favorite author’s novels. She had already read A Time to Kill and The Partner. It would take her months before she’d need A Time for Mercy, the latest novel she’d loaned Kyla.
It was almost seven-thirty before her cell vibrated. “Hey girl, thought you’d forgot to call.” Lillian laid Pelican aside and stood. The jogging suit was hot. She walked to the doorway and flipped on the ceiling fan.
“Sorry, the goat man came. I thought he was coming tomorrow. He was half-drunk, but I love my Nubians.”
“What?” Lillian wasn’t a farm girl and didn’t understand or appreciate Kyla’s interest in country life. She’d spent forty-plus years in a Buckhead suburb.
“That’s the breed. Anglo-Nubian.”
“How many did you buy?”
“Five. Four females, all pregnant, and one male. They’re beautiful and adorable. Like pets.”
“What color?”
“The male is mostly black. One female is solid brown. The others are a mix of brown and white spots. They all have pendulous ears.” Lillian didn’t ask.
“And you’re really going to milk them?” Lillian remembered visiting Kyla’s home and farm during their high school days. Then, Kyla was naturally smart but country, an outdoor, tom-boyish girl with a distinctive southern twang. Now, and most all her years since college in Atlanta, she was cultured, exuding confidence with her coherent speech, anything but a slow drawl.
“And make cheese.” The sounds that followed Kyla’s statement had to be the bleating of goats.
“You still outside?”
“I’m headed in. I’m leaving them in the barn’s hallway. You should come see them tomorrow when I let them out to pasture.”
“Don’t forget, I’m hoofing it. I’ll be climbing the walls by Friday, assuming my car’s ready by then.”
“I can come get you. Oh, this’ll pick you up. Guess who I talked to?”
“George Clooney? Did you give him my number?”
“Ha. Not George, but the next best thing. For you that is.”
“And who would that be?”
“My brother.” Kyla had always thought Lillian and Lee would get back together. They had dated in the eleventh grade and gone steady throughout their senior year. The bust-up had occurred during Lillian’s freshman year in Tuscaloosa at the University of Alabama. Ray Archer had swooped in and snatched her up, promising a leisure life with travel, money, and none of the headaches of working. It had been the hardest thing she’d ever done, calling Lee at the University of Virginia and giving him the news. Looking back, it was the worst decision Lillian had ever made.
“Is he retiring? Coming to see you?” Lillian crossed the room and opened the sliding door to the balcony. She needed some cool air. The moon cast its soft light across the narrow porch. She took three steps and looked skyward. The full moon was so close she could touch it, so she imagined.
“Don’t you wish?” Kyla and Lillian shared every secret, well, almost everyone. For sure, through the years, Kyla had listened to her best friend, as her marriage crumbled. To start, the sex had been passionate and frequent, but without intimacy, it was only a quick thrill. Kyla knew Lillian had stayed for the money, not the love. Anyway, what would she do now? She had never worked a day in her life, although there had been that tenth grade Christmas job at Fred King’s, a clothing store in downtown Boaz.
“Is he any better?” Kyla had shared how devastated Lee was over Rachel’s suicide, that he was seeing a counselor, and spending most of his time teaching, advising students, and researching. Except for Saturdays, he was rarely at home.
“Maybe a little. I’m hopeful. He called to ask if Rachel had loaned me a book, one by Dietrich Bonhoeffer. You know, the Lutheran preacher who the Nazi’s hanged during World War II.”
“I think there’s a copy in the church library, but I’ve never read it.”
“No surprise there. I’m hoping this is a sign Lee is rekindling his love for Jesus. His searching for this book is encouraging.”
“It’s probably not what you think. I doubt he’d change his mind. Lee’s too smart.” Lillian remembered her and Lee’s high school conversations, and his surprise she believed the Jesus story.
“Oh, please. Let’s not go there.”
“Alright but tell me when Lee’s going to pay you a visit.” Lillian’s mind was flying at warp speed, trying to figure out a believable way for her to pop in after Lee arrived.
“I don’t see that happening. You know he hasn’t been to Boaz since 2002, our thirty-year class reunion.” Even though Kyla was a year younger than Lee, they were in the same grade. She academically had been smarter than the very smart Lee, skipping third grade to join her brother, Lillian, Rachel, and a hundred others in the class that would change the world. Or so Mrs. Sims, the high school counselor, had claimed.
Kyla and Lillian talked and giggled another forty-five minutes before Ray pecked on her closed bedroom door. “I’ve got to go out. Do you need anything?” Lillian stood and semi-panicked, remembering she’d flipped the lock. She knew he’d be mad if he tried the doorknob. Even after their agreement, he was always in the mood. Charming, he thought.
“No, I’m good. You be careful,” she said as she slowly unlocked and pulled open the door. Ray’s aftershave wafted inside the bedroom, drawn by the draft from the balcony. “I’m talking with Kyla.” Lillian whispered and pointed to her upheld iPhone.
Ray gave her that curled lip of a smile and delivered his usual salutation as he descended the stairs. “Don’t wait up for me.”
A smart-ass remark almost followed. Lillian kept it to herself. She had wanted to say, “Tell Karen, or Cindy, or Brenda, whoever she is, that she can have you.”
Lillian closed her door and returned to the balcony. And Kyla’s patient ears.
Biking is something else I both love and hate. It takes a lot of effort but does provide good exercise and most days over an hour to listen to a good book or podcast. I especially like having ridden.
Here’s my bike, a Rockhopper by Specialized. I purchased it November 2021 from Venture Out in Guntersville; Mike is top notch! So is the bike, and the ‘old’ man seat I salvaged from an old Walmart bike.
What’s a miracle, and how would we know if we found one?
Here’s my submission to John Loftus’ call for responses to a Q&A in an upcoming Christian documentary on miracles and the evidence thereof. What follows is probably not sound-bitey enough to be used, but I was on a roll and couldn’t stop. Do take note of (7), as it draws from personal experience growing up as a fundamentalist Christian.
(1) Why do you believe I should not believe in God?
You’re welcome to believe whatever you want, and in any god of your choosing. But whatever you believe should be preceded by honest engagement with the evidence, defensible by way of rational argument, and continually challenged and interrogated in the form of skeptical inquiry. That last bit is critical. After all, if your beliefs can’t stand up to scrutiny, the scrutiny is not the problem. And regularly having to explain away inconvenient evidence is a good sign that your beliefs are ready for revision. Such insights can and should be exported far beyond the matter of belief in God.
(2) What’s a miracle?
This is less a historical or scientific question than a philosophical or metaphysical question. How to approach miracles and the supernatural in a formal sense remains a methodological challenge upon which none of us wholly agree. One commonly given definition of a ‘miracle’ is that it is a suspension of the natural order or the known laws of physics, often attributed to supernatural as opposed to natural agencies. This definition places the referent outside historical and scientific methods.
For example, the question of whether Jesus was born of a virgin, walked on water, and raised bodily from the dead; whether the angel Moroni appeared before Joseph Smith; whether the prophet Muhammad split the moon in two and ascended to heaven on a winged horse — conventionally these aren’t questions that either historians or scientists are methodologically equipped to answer. Rather, these are theological questions with philosophical underpinnings that go beyond what the historian can attest.
The reasons being that (1) these disciplines lack the critical methods to resolve questions of metaphysical complexity and (2) such questions imply certain realities that run counter to the factual uniformity of nature and our current rational scientific understanding. While we hang a question mark over miracle claims of the past, we do acknowledge the presence of theological elements and incorporate how beliefs about the supernatural operated within their historical context. That is, we can still attest to how common such beliefs were at the time, what effects they had on society and the surrounding culture, and how those effects informed, set the stage for, and enabled us to make better sense of later events, without rendering a verdict on individual theological perspectives.
The important point is that answers to questions about the supernatural cannot rest on historical or scientific evidence alone. As Dr. James Tabor writes:
“As far as the subjects of the miraculous and the supernatural, historians of religions remain observers. The fact is we do not exclude religious experience in investigating the past–far from it. We actually embrace it most readily. What people believe or claim to have experienced becomes a vital part of our evidence…Historians likewise deal with “beliefs” about the afterlife and the unseen world beyond, but without asserting the historical reality of these notions or realms. We can evaluate what people claimed, what they believed, what they reported, and that all becomes part of the data, but to then say, “A miracle happened” or this or that “prophet” was truly hearing from God, as opposed to another who was utterly false prophecy, goes beyond our accessible methods.”
(3) What is knowledge?
Another philosophical question with few convergent answers. One definition which gained steam during the Enlightenment, and may date as far back as Plato, is this notion of ‘justified true belief’. This formulation calls for a belief to be true insofar as one’s belief that it is true is justified, either by evidence, argument or otherwise.
I will typically simplify things by saying that one’s claim to knowledge is justified provided it adheres to one or more basic standards of intellectual honesty: namely that we proportion our beliefs to the evidence and adjust our conclusions to the strength of that evidence. Echoing the late philosopher John Dewey, the idea is not to invoke beliefs we merely wish to be true, or latch onto any compelling or fanciful notion that comes our way, but rather to withhold judgment until justifying reasons are found.
(4) Under what circumstances would it be rational to believe a healing miracle occurred? When would it not be rational?
The latter question is easier than the former. It would not be rational to accept claims of healing miracles for which perfectly reasonable natural explanations are readily available. For example, appealing to supernatural agency to explain the recovery of a cancer patient is not rational since we know that spontaneous remission from cancer is a natural process that occurs with some regularity.
Miracle claims associated with Lourdes are of this variety, as Michael Nugent has pointed out. Of the 200 million or so people who’ve traveled to Lourdes, there have been 69 recognized miracles since the Middle Ages — a 1 in 3 million chance of being cured. That’s considerably less than the natural rate of recovery for common illnesses like cancer. It’s also difficult to explain, by way of supernatural agency, why 90% of those cured happen to be women.
A circumstance in which an amputee regrows a lost limb would constitute more compelling evidence that a miracle claim had occurred, since this is not known to happen among primates. This is just one example that could meet certain criteria for a healing miracle. For a comprehensive exploration of what evidence for the supernatural might look like more generally, see my essay What Would Convince You in which I outline the kinds of claims I would find convincing, regardless of whether they terminate in the God of Christianity or any of the other deities to which humans have ascribed such claims.
That said, the bar for validating claims associated with miracles and supernatural meddling should be tremendously high at this point in human history, owing, among other things, to their historically fraught track record. No examples exist of phenomena once explained by science that were later found to be better explained by the supernatural, but plenty of examples exist in reverse. It’s no accident that as science marched ahead, miracle claims took a nosedive.
As William Inge writes in Christian Ethics and Modern Problems (1930, p. 198):
“Spinoza, who identified the divine will and natural law, had to pronounce miracles a priori impossible: but the Rationalist, who does not see the logic of believing in an omnipotent power and then limiting its capabilities, makes it entirely a question of evidence. There is no more sound evidence of such things at Lourdes than in the Middle Ages or ancient Judaea, and the fact that they were once understood to happen daily, and to have decreased with the progress of exact inquiry, is significant enough.”
Were we presented with observational evidence more denotative of supernatural as opposed to natural phenomena, would it then be within reason to lend credence to the miracle claim? Well, maybe, maybe not. It would depend on the specifics of any single occurrence. But in practice, how would we know what to look for?
And therein lies the dilemma. The abstract nature of the “supernatural” as a concept beleaguers our ability to intelligibly discuss it. Since the referent(s) the term is meant to describe has never been quantified in any formal sense, it’s doubtful we would possess the means to identify such a thing were it to occur. And even if we did, we’d still have little reason to opt for the supernatural explanation over the natural one given our vast capacity for error on this score. Absent any especial characteristics, we would always be left with the nagging suspicion that anything attributed to supernatural causes would inevitably fall prey to Clarke’s Third Law, destined to serve as yet another placeholder for a more informed appreciation of the natural world.
(5) Why should I have a bias against supernatural claims?
See (4) above. Rather than “bias,” I prefer to say that any claims of the miraculous or supernatural ought to be taken with a healthy dose of skepticism simply due to the longrunning trajectory of mistakenly ascribing phenomena to non-natural and religious explanations only to later be accounted for by natural processes. Scientific discovery has consistently raised the curtain on our intuitions and our hard-wired predispositions to patternicity and agenticity, among other ornaments of human cognition.
Put simply, when we lacked answers, we invented our own. Science offered a way forward by testing the received wisdom against observation. But old habits die hard.
“There is no way of proving once and for all that the world is not magic; all we can do is point to an extraordinarily long and impressive list of formerly-mysterious things that we were ultimately able to make sense of. There’s every reason to believe that this streak of successes will continue, and no reason to believe it will end.”
In the natural sciences, we tend to adhere to a rubric known as methodological naturalism (MN). This is not necessarily taken a priori but it is one that gradually caught fire in the scientific community because we found that invoking the supernatural didn’t aid in our ability to do science. That such explanations didn’t augment the scientific process in any way — that they didn’t help us in understanding how the universe works. Our theories work just fine without them.
Of course, the ultimate irony lies with those who in one breath decry MN and in the next declare that miracles, gods, and the like are questions that lie outside of science. That can’t be right.
(6) What are natural occurrences that people often mistake for miracles?
See (4) above. The tendency to assign ordinary workings of the universe and the human body to supernatural causation is ancient, and observed as far back as we have historical evidence. A return to health after suffering illnesses from which people naturally recover — from cancer to the common cold — are often attributed to divine intervention. Fundamentalist types take seemingly every opportunity to ascribe natural disasters like hurricanes and earthquakes to God’s wrath or vengeance. This is perhaps a slight improvement over pre-Socratic Greece, where earthquakes were pinned on Poseidon stomping around like a madman drunk with rage — or maybe just drunk.
Another example would be “close calls,” as exemplified by one of the characters in the recent Netflix original drama series Ozark. Jason Bateman’s character meets a pastor who recounts a harrowing story that ultimately led to his religious conversion. Years earlier he had waltzed into a convenience store in the midst of being robbed. The thief had a gun, and shot him in the chest. The bullet narrowly missed his critical arteries and he survived. Only a heavenly Providence could explain this apparent miracle that allowed him to survive while two others bled out on the floor around him.
Oldie but a goodie.
(7) What advice would you give people in the Pentecostal/Charismatic tradition?
As someone who grew up in the Charismatic tradition of Pentecostal Christianity, I would encourage people to question the teachings and those who offer them. Question your youth leaders and question your pastors. Engage your peers in theological discourse. Pose skeptical questions and counterarguments. Esteem your beliefs by challenging them. Put the doctrines and dogmas of your church under the microscope and ask whether they pass logical and moral muster. Evaluate whether they can be squared with a rational understanding of the physical world. Research, research, research. Subject your faith to a skeptical examination of the Bible — its origins, authorship, composition, and preservation. Study up on other world religions and their sacred texts.
Pursue knowledge for its own sake. Be open and willing to revise those beliefs that fall astride of the facts. Learn to favor doubt and residual uncertainty, to resist blind dogmatism and stubborn absolutism. Seek out democratic discussion over echo chambers free of dissent. Step out of your ideological comfort zone, thrust yourself into new contexts, and seek out people of differing perspectives and worldviews. If you only entertain views you already agree with, you will be ill-equipped to make an informed decision. Making an informed decision only works when you have alternatives to choose from.
Never suppress the urge to question or pass up an opportunity to critically examine your beliefs. Wield skepticism like the virtue it is, and steer clear of those who condemn you for it. Refuse to accept convenient answers and recycled rationalizations that only validate your existing biases and deeply held convictions. Follow the evidence.
Joel Osteen is an anti-intellectual demagogue. Don’t be like Joel Osteen.
Above all else, stay curious. As Arnold Edinborough once wrote, “Curiosity is the very basis of education and if you tell me that curiosity killed the cat, I say only the cat died nobly.”
I was late for breakfast, even though it had taken less than ten minutes to drive to Bella’s in downtown New Haven. I found my in-laws in a corner booth and kissed Rosa on the cheek, apologizing profusely. Rob’s smile-less face appeared angry, semi-confirming my belief he blamed me for his daughter’s death.
“Sorry, I spent too much time looking for your book.” The Cost of Discipleship by Dietrich Bonhoeffer was a “loan” to Rachel several years ago. She’d encouraged me to read it, but I’d stuck with my law books and novels instead. The Lutheran preacher’s autographed book was given to Rosa in the late sixties by the author’s twin sister, Sabine Leibholz, at a Christian conference she had spoken to in Berlin. I don’t recall how Sabine had received signed copies of her brother’s books twenty-plus years after the Nazis hung him in 1945.
“Rachel would have prized it. And protected it. It’s there, in her library, somewhere.” I said, embarrassed, knowing my failure to find would be one more reason for Rob’s disgust.
Rosa, at eighty-five, was still attractive and elegant. Like Rachel, she had high cheekbones. Unlike my wife, Rosa wore a constant smile. Her happiness was always on display, which amplified her refined facial structure.
“I’ll keep looking, but you know you’re always welcome to visit. Why don’t you two follow me home and stay a few days? I’m sure you’ll find your book.” I said, looking at Rosa, and avoiding Rob across the table.
“We can’t. I want to be in Boston by sundown.” Rob laid aside his laminated menu, his voice unusually gruff.
The server came and took our orders. Rosa and I opted for oatmeal and fruit. Rob stuck with Southern tradition: eggs, biscuits, grits, bacon and sausage, and a large orange juice. The young girl left, and an older man appeared to refill our coffee cups. I turned mine over. “Half a cup, please.” I had already had enough caffeine.
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Rosa didn’t contest Rob’s plans, instead stayed on safe ground. “How do you know about this place? Did you and Rachel come here?”
“No, but she would have loved it, with these booths nestled against the walls, the long counter with evenly spaced stools. Even these laminated menus.” I handed mine to Rosa for her to store with the others inside the wire rack next to the salt and pepper shakers.
“So, how did you find it?” Rob jumped in. I’d ignored Rosa’s first question.
“It’s about a twenty-minute walk to the law school. I’d parked across the street at Edgewood Park, not noticing Bella’s at first. That was before Rachel.” I paused. “Died. She was after me about exercising. Said I needed to abandon the faculty parking lot and take a long walk, both before and after my workday. I took her advice and have been parking across the street ever since. I come in here for dinner if I work late.”
Neither Rob nor Rosa responded. The silence grew stressful. Finally, the server delivered our food.
With a mouth full of food, Rob surprised me. “We need some legal advice. That’s why we’re here.” The latter statement wasn’t a surprise. The former was. Randy, their son, Rachel’s younger brother, and my brother-in-law, was also an attorney. Rob had always called on him, although the need for legal advice was rare for a missionary couple.
I shouldn’t have responded with my disinterested tone. “Where’s Randy?”
“Hiking. Again.” Rob stuffed a whole slice of bacon in his mouth. Randy had recently retired as general counsel for a large construction company in Chicago. He’d always had a passion for the outdoors.
“Appalachian Trail?” I was aware he’d made the fifteen-hundred-mile trek at least twice. Rosa offered her pineapple. “Thanks.”
Rosa held out her palm and stopped Rob from speaking. “Rob’s mad at Randy. He took Celia with him.” Celia was the twenty-five-year-old daughter of the construction company’s chairperson and majority stockholder. She’d snared the fifty-nine-year-old Randy at a company picnic three years ago. This had cost my brother-in-law his marriage. The two lovebirds were now living in the Winnebago Randy had purchased with the bonus he’d received at retirement. I guessed it paid to sleep with the King’s daughter.
“What’s your legal issue?” I asked, thinking it would detour the conversation away from a dissertation on adultery.
Rob took the bait. “You ever heard of eminent domain?” The server returned and took another order for bacon. I wondered how long it would be until my father-in-law died of a heart attack.
“I have. Studied it a little in law school forty years ago.”
“They’re going to take it unless you do something.” Rob was good at confusing statements. I’d heard him preach enough to know that.
“Who’s they and what are they taking?” I switched plates, pushing my oatmeal away and pulling my fruit forward.
Rosa offered help. “The City of Boaz is condemning our house on Thomas.”
“You mean the Hunt House?” Rob’s rich banker brother, a bachelor all his brief life, had left the historic home for Rob and Rosa. That was in the early sixties when Randall died. He had died of a heart attack at age forty-four. I wondered if he loved bacon.
“You know in our will we give that place to Rachel and Randy. I’m about ready to cut Randy out and leave him a dollar. You can have Rachel’s part, shit, the whole place. If you can save it.” Obviously, Rob opposed his son’s shacked-up lifestyle.
“Why is the city wanting your property?” I knew little about real estate law and virtually nothing about the doctrine of eminent domain. But I recalled it prevented the government from using the condemned property for private purposes.
“Damn Ray Archer and one of his mega-centers.” I almost blew out a mouthful of cantaloupe. Sweat spread across my forehead. Ray Archer was the only person in the world I hated. It was impossible not to blame him for Rachel’s death half-a-century after he got her pregnant.
Rosa noticed how upset I was. “See, I told you this was a bad idea.” Rob stared while Rosa talked. I didn’t hear her last three statements.
“Can we stop it?” Rob kept going as though Rosa wasn’t present. “I’d love to kill the son-of-a-bitch but I’m afraid of prison. He took Rachel from us. He’s not taking the only home in the states she knew.” I’d never heard him cuss.
“While she was growing up.” Rosa was always clarifying Rob’s broad statements.
I took a sip of water. “How would I know?” I said, staring at Rob.
“You’re a lawyer, aren’t you?” I had forgotten what an asshole Rob could be, even if he didn’t normally cuss. In my world, it didn’t seem to fit a Southern Baptist Missionary.
“Sorry to not be clairvoyant. I need more facts, and a lot of time to research, but my guess is that the City’s attorneys have fully explored this.”
“You better hurry. There’s not a lot of time. Word is the city has already asked a court to sanctify its offer. From what I hear, the bulldozers will start before Christmas.” I could have asked Rob a dozen questions. But I didn’t. Instead, I pondered Rob’s reasoning to reject the City’s offer. It could be the money, but I’d bet it was simple revenge.
“We’re the only holdouts.” Rosa added, offering her pears and kiwi slices. I declined, wishing for Pepto Bismol instead. “They’re taking the entire block, from Thomas to Sparks, from Brown to Darnell.”
I could picture the entire block, surrounded by these four streets. “Dang, aren’t there a dozen or more houses, and what about the church?”
“Julie Street Methodist. It’s already in need of extensive repairs. It’s a blessing to the members. They’re going to build a new facility.” Rosa always looked for the good.
“How much is the city offering for your place?” The amount should be a sizable sum. The giant home was a landmark, included in the Historic Register. A man named Whitman built it in the 1920s, I believe. His family sold it to a Dr. Hunt, maybe in the late forties or early fifties. I recalled Rachel saying her Uncle Randall had bought it at an auction and she, Randy and her parents, had first lived there in the late sixties when they returned from China on furlough.
“Half a million.” Rob interjected, having finished his food, and was now devouring the rest of Rosa’s fruit. It couldn’t be the money. Rob was out for revenge.
“That seems like a fair price, maybe above market, but I’m just guessing.” I figured Ray Archer could afford twice that amount. After Rachel died, I did a little research. I had hoped to discover the son-of-a-bitch had terminal cancer, or a shark had eaten him. My findings were the opposite. In his thirties and forties, Ray had built a profitable chain of stores that served triple duty: pharmacies, groceries, and housewares. He’d later bought out his brother and then sold the entire chain to Walgreen’s, for somewhere around a billion dollars. Since the late nineties, Archer’s focus was on a development known as Rylan’s. It’s a chain of farm and ranch stores structured like Tractor Supply. The only difference is that Ray includes them in a much larger development of stores, none of which are owned by him. Obviously, Rachel’s abortion had affected her much worse than her teenage lover.
After the server and Rob exchanged paper and credit card, my attention waned. My in-laws reported in much detail what Rylan’s was all about. Thursday, they visited one while passing through Knoxville, Tennessee. My thoughts turned to Boaz, Alabama, when Rob began describing Ruth’s Christ, a Christian bookstore idea Ray was trying.
I hadn’t returned to Boaz since 2002 when Rachel insisted we attend my thirty year high school reunion. It was her graduating class too, if she’d stayed past Christmas of her tenth-grade year. Instead, she and her family were in China for the May 1972 ceremonies.
That 2002 weekend was also the first time I’d ever been inside the Hunt House. It was Rachel’s idea. She had only lived there a year and a half but felt the need to visit her upstairs bedroom. The Kern’s had long leased the place to a woman named Barbara. I forgot her last name. She had converted the place to a bed-and-breakfast.
The place was magnificent, unmatched architecture for Boaz, anywhere really. It was a brick Craftsman-style home. I particularly liked its tiled roof and porch with heavy brick columns. I think I recall exposed rafter ends, and rectilinear fireplace mantles. Inside, I recalled three floors with a ton of built-ins and even a secret passageway or two.
“Lee, Lee Harding, are you listening?” Rob had raised his voice. I don’t know why he said my full name. Rosa was patting me on my right hand.
“Huh? Sorry, I was daydreaming, I guess. What’d you say?” My listening skills were declining.
“You’ll help us?” Rob’s question was mostly command.
I hesitated, but felt I had little choice. It really wouldn’t be that difficult. And I could do it from here, the law school, assuming Alabama was like every other state. Now, they all keep court records online. “I’ll investigate it. At least check out the City’s court filing. Maybe talk to the city attorney.” Rob sat straighter, leaning a little more towards me, maybe expecting me to assure him of a coming victory. It was important that I keep him grounded. “Rob, there’s probably little I can do to stop the demolition.”
Without framing his thoughts, Rob blurted: “Give’em hell, that’s all I ask.” I didn’t respond. So much for keeping Rob grounded.
Donald Trump, the greatest failure in American history, betrayed the United States of America and desecrated the presidential oath of office.
Twice impeached and charged with 37 felony counts over his alleged misconduct involving the nation’s most sensitive secrets, Donald Trump will soon be held accountable for inciting an insurrection against the US Constitution and trying to take political power illegally. He attempted to incite a coup d’état. It was planned, organized and executed from within his White House. It was seditious and criminal.
There is no betrayal against the American flag that equals Trump’s since the Civil War. His treachery equals that of Jefferson Davis. He attacked what he swore to preserve, protect and defend. He assaulted the sacrifices and memory of 250 years of patriots who built the United States with his outlandish misconduct. His presidency was a national humiliation without respite.
His current candidacy is our national herpes. He is America’s loathsome canker and most exquisite scum bag. He is rotten, dishonest, staggeringly corrupt, bombastic, ignorant and cruel. He combines imbecility and arrogance into a potent weapon, which for some reason has found appeal among America’s vast taker and victim classes. Wherever grievance is a virtue and self-pity heroic, a Trump flag will be flying high. The pathetic and weak need their heroes too, after all.
All of the graves in the American cemetery that lies above Omaha Beach face west, back across the Atlantic Ocean towards the United States. The graves are laid out in perfect symmetry. It is an American army at permanent rest. Each died in combat against a profound evil. They died so that darkness would not fall over the world. How are we measuring up?
Donald Trump is a criminal and an abomination. He is a grotesquerie. He tried to burn America down. What he did was criminal, and no one is above the law in America. He is a shameful man and his bill has come due — finally.
Biking is something else I both love and hate. It takes a lot of effort but does provide good exercise and most days over an hour to listen to a good book or podcast. I especially like having ridden.
Here’s my bike, a Rockhopper by Specialized. I purchased it November 2021 from Venture Out in Guntersville; Mike is top notch! So is the bike, and the ‘old’ man seat I salvaged from an old Walmart bike.
As an atheist and former theist I am on occasion asked what it would take to change my mind on this central metaphysical question. What met conditions or circumstances would reincorporate into my worldview the conviction that God exists and, more specifically, that Christianity offers the best explanation for the world we observe?
However we may currently identify, and however strong our convictions in any one area, we must take these questions seriously. If we possess well considered reasons justifying our beliefs, then we should also consider possibilities that could weaken or undermine those beliefs. A worldview which can never be moved around, reconfigured into different shapes, is a worldview better characterized by creed and dogma than by epistemic openness and intellectual integrity. If we are to be responsible in our commitment to truth, our positions must ultimately be defeasible — open to revision in light of new information — lest we fall victim to playing tennis without the net.
With this in mind, my overriding approach is that a belief should be demonstrable on the weight of evidence and argument. If new information is forthcoming, if the evidence (or interpretation of that evidence) changes, or if arguments with greater explanatory scope and internal consistency are offered, it is our epistemic duty to honestly assess these new inputs and what it entails for our existing orientation. This is a basic feature used to build conclusions in philosophy and science and can be broadly exported to other areas of our discourse.
Before we dive in, it will be useful to clarify an oft-omitted distinction that tends to bog down discussions on this topic. The distinction is that between a “direct participant” deity — the god of theism — who intervenes in space and time and cares about how the drama of life plays out, and the noninterventionist, “absentee landlord” variety of deism. The latter is irrelevant because its existence and nonexistence are logically identical (from our perspective) and thus is not the focus of this essay. Rather, I will deal here with the former, a transcendent being that has a hand in the natural order and is in some sense involved in the affairs of humans. This is the territory of theism, the regime with the most relevance to our daily lives and metaphysical luggage.
The “God Hypothesis”
Contrary to some atheists, I don’t subscribe to the notion that there is, in principle or otherwise, a falsifiable “God hypothesis.” Refuting God is not like refuting the proposition All swans are white by finding a gaggle of black-plumaged swans in Scandinavia, thereby bringing us closer to the truth about the nature of swans. While I do think certain religious beliefs have been rendered untenable by the lights of modern science and historical inquiry, I don’t think we can definitively adjudge an entity’s nonexistence in the case of theism.
What we can do, however, is point out the lack of evidence where evidence ought to be — in other words, build an evidential case for nonexistence. And this is where popular conceptions of theism tend to break apart, because a god that intervenes in space and time is a god that is accessible to scientific study. In a world where Christians and other monotheists profess belief in a meddler god who influenced ancient texts, answers prayers, appoints semi-sane politicians to run for office, and worked all manner of miracles throughout history, the utter vacuum of evidence for such assertions begins to speak volumes. If demons and angels and spirits and souls were part of the furniture of reality, then their effects in the world should have been clearly documented by now. Given all that is attributed to these ethereal entities, this paradox should at the very least strike a person as strange.
Accordingly, though we may not be able to conclusively rule out the God of theism and his confederacy of celestial beings — à la Russell’s teapot — we can be reasonably confident that no such entities exist, in short, because things that don’t exist leave no evidence behind. They can’t, after all, because they don’t exist.
If we want to be more careful in our language here, rather than claim outright that God does not exist we can simply say that we see no good evidence for God, and therefore (recalling John Dewey) a verdict cannot be reached on the question unless and until good reasons to warrant the belief are found. It’s an important distinction, in the same way that a jury for a criminal trial either finds sufficient evidence to convict, or not. A ‘not guilty’ verdict does not mean the defendant is innocent, only that there is insufficient evidence to establish guilt.
The purpose here is to offer 20 examples that would move a jury, namely me, beyond reasonable doubt. In so doing, we will look at a number of expectations that could be considered consistent with the claim that God exists and then see how those expectations correspond to the world we actually observe. As noted above, most of the following will interface with the generic god of theism and in the process make direct contact with Christianity in particular. My personal view is that a wider appreciation of reality reveals a universe that does not appear the way we would expect if theism were true, leaving nonbelief as a supremely rational position to hold.
1. If evolution were false. That is to say, if our scientific understanding of the diversity of life were irreparably refuted. The theological challenge presented by common descent has less to do with any putative conflict between science and fundamentalist religion than the larger dissonance it poses for teleological value systems. Those who flippantly maintain that evolution and faith are compatible rarely come to terms with what the great Book of Nature really tells us: We are an evolutionary accident, an infinitesimal, stochastically produced whimper in a four billion-year chain of existence that when compressed to a single year has man emerging within the final fifteen minutes of the calendar. If we truly are God’s chosen — the foreordained purpose of all that is and ever will be — why so much time spent with “unensouled” microbes?
This can be a tough pill to swallow precisely because it taps into something more profound than clumsy interpretations of ancient texts. Not only do evolution and deep time blunt our cosmic significance, but its ends are achieved through the instrument of death. Within the context of natural selection, death is not an unnatural state but is in fact integral to the process: it is the mechanism by which less fit individuals are removed from the gene pool, allowing those left standing to carry on. The corrosive influence of this most foundational of scientific formalisms was perhaps best expressed in a letter to the editor popularized by the late Stephen Jay Gould:
“Pope John Paul II’s acceptance of evolution touches the doubt in my heart. The problem of pain and suffering in a world created by a God who is all love and light is hard enough to bear, even if one is a creationist. But at least a creationist can say that the original creation, coming from the hand of God was good, harmonious, innocent and gentle. What can one say about evolution, even a spiritual theory of evolution? Pain and suffering, mindless cruelty and terror are its means of creation. Evolution’s engine is the grinding of predatory teeth upon the screaming, living flesh and bones of prey…If evolution be true, my faith has rougher seas to sail.”
Those who prefer a “God-guided” evolutionary model, moreover, must contend with the abundance of suboptimal design and overt inefficiencies with which nature is replete. Classic examples like the recurrent laryngeal nerve and the crossing of the air and food passages in vertebrates seem far removed from the realized premeditated vision of a competent architect. And if we owe our presence here to the illimitable wisdom of a Master Engineer who populated the planet in special acts of creation — as alleged by literalist readers of Genesis — we would not expect the rampant dysteleology evident in nature any more than we would expect the indisputable genetic, embryological, paleontological, and biogeographic evidence pointing to common descent.
Far from suggesting humanity occupies the climax of any cosmic production, the available evidence suggests we are an accidental scene in an otherwise haphazardly produced drama. The privileged plank on which so many religions place humanity is permanently deposed through the lens of evolution. To believe that there is some discarnate, phantasmic agency out there that harbors deep concern for our species is perhaps the most delusional, nay, conceited notion one can countenance.
2. If God appeared to me or made its presence known to me. The canonical gospels of the Christian New Testament are filled with post-mortem appearances. Jesus is said to have appeared to Cephas (Saint Peter) and the apostles, and to more than 500 others. In the Hebrew Bible Yahweh appears to Moses so often the two are on a first-name basis. A god concerned about the affairs of its creation, about what we believe and our eventual destination, could appear to every one of us, convincing us instantly of its existence and preeminence — yet we are left only with silence. Indeed, a direct manifestation would very likely convince me posthaste, though I would of course first ensure that I had not been in a chemically induced or comatose state at the time.
3. If we were not made of “star stuff.” Imagine the human race were composed of material utterly foreign to the rest of the cosmos. Suppose that baked into our biology were elements or unique forms of matter or energy not found in any other species, or anywhere else in the universe. Such radical discontinuity would at the very least be tantalizing enough to wax poetic about our “specialness.” Drawing a straight line from here to Jesus would be rather naïve, as scientific inquiry could lead us to other, more mundane reasons for our sui generis composition. But this would be a good launching pad for theism.
As the science shows, however, there are universal inheritance patterns linking up the diversity of all life on Earth. The DNA and RNA found in all living things — from microbes and archaea to plants and mammals — are altered over time in response to changing circumstances, with more closely related kin sharing more features (and DNA) in common than more remote kin. Our bodies are littered with echoes of Homo sapiens’ evolutionary ancestry — from retroviral DNA, pseudogenes, and vestigial structures to the assortment of point mutations we share with our chimpanzee cousins. We all come from common clay, an inspiring and beautiful fact in its own right.
4. If a natural disaster were stopped in its tracks. There would be no explaining away a major cataclysm being miraculously averted, say, the tsunami which thumped the island of Sumatra in December 2004, laying waste to a quarter million people, 40% of which were children. A hurricane that mysteriously changed direction or an approaching asteroid that was inexplicably deflected away from Earth, trouncing the known laws of physics: divine involvement of this magnitude would likely blow the lid off my ideological center. By contrast, the biblical Yahweh saw fit to intervene on behalf of the fleeing Israelites by parting the Red Sea, and on behalf of Elisha by issuing flesh-hungry bears to maul his antagonizers. Alas, the God of the Bible has apparently grown lax over the years.
The problem of justice in a world created by a personal force remains unsolved, though certainly not unchallenged. The moral position on matters of avertable harms declares the bystander to be guilty, and as the eternal Bystander, God, should he exist, must be indicted as the worst offender of all.
5. If the efficacy of prayer could be conclusively demonstrated as superior to modern medical remedies. To date there have been several well-controlled, double-blind studies on the efficacy of prayer. In each of these studies, the null hypothesis was confirmed (i.e., prayer was shown to have no effect on patient condition). One of the largest and most significant of these studies was funded by the Templeton Foundation, who of course was trying to prove the opposite. Templeton solicited Christian petitioners across America and provided them with the first name and last initial of 1,802 patients to pray for. The whole unctuous affair lasted for months, and the results were published in the American Heart Journal in April 2006. No relationship observed.1
6. If we were to observe a true medical miracle. Qualifying phenomena include an amputee regrowing a limb — a capacity granted to starfish and many reptiles but not to us — or some other marvel outside the confines of our genetic toolkit. Or perhaps one of the millions of children who die every year being resurrected after declared death. Were the saints in Matthew more precious than these children, year after year?
Benny Hinn. Mind the typo.
7. If miracles like the ones crowding the Bible had occurred since the arrival of video cameras and modern methods of recording and preservation. Contrasting the Yahweh who intervened spectacularly in ancient times — taking up residence in a burning bush, raining fire down from the sky to establish Baal’s inferiority — or the Jesus who walked on water and transformed it into wine, with the utter absence of such enchanting productions following the arrival of video capture would seem to clinch the case against Judeo-Christianity almost singlehandedly. A falloff in miracle claims at precisely the moment our technology is capable of documenting them is not what we would expect were God as active in the world as many believers proclaim.
Frequency of miracles over time
8. If we found two cultures who had independently received an identical revelation. As secular author David McAfee has noted, “If one religion were ‘true’, we would expect to see, even if only once in all of recorded history, a religious missionary that had stumbled upon a culture that shared the same revelations — brought forth by the same deity.”
Were we to discover that two uncontacted peoples inhabiting opposite ends of the planet worshipped the same god, lionized the same verbatim scriptures, and were bestowed duplicate revelations, this would strongly suggest divine origin or supernatural agency. Even more convincing would be the arrival of an extraterrestrial civilization that was found to have had an identical revelation to one here on Earth.
Meanwhile…
Instead, what we have found is that geography and birthparents are the leading predictors for religious affiliation. Which god one believes in and which values one adheres to are predominantly determined by the culture in which one happens to be born. This is not what we should expect if a single revelation had a more tactile connection to the truth. We find, moreover, that none of the major world religions sync up with one another; many are mutually contradictory, and even members of the same religion often disagree as much among themselves as they do with those of other faiths. Within the framework of personal revelation, we should expect more consensus in the realm of religious experience, with internal agreement and conversion rates tipped in favor of those claims with something real behind them.
Religious demographics are better explained anthropologically, in which cultural traditions, beliefs, and norms are largely rooted in that culture’s heritage and social environment. And this is as true now as it was in the ancient world. The biblical writers, like those of the Islamic, Buddhist, and Hindu scriptures, drew from and adapted existing ideas to speak to their particular historical perspective.
9. If divine messages were embedded within our mathematical or physical laws. Were we to find some hidden intelligible code in our numeral systems or field equations escaping all plausible coincidence, this might suggest a message from above. An example could be a discernible pattern located in pi‘s unending chain of decimals that only makes sense in the context of Hindu or Christian scriptures. Suppose the pattern could be cross-walked perfectly to our oldest biblical manuscripts in their original Hebrew or Greek to the extent that we could read the scriptures strictly from the decimals. Or perhaps a string of prime numbers that could not possibly have arisen by sheer chance and carried unmistakable signs of intelligence.2
This one is abstract, and astute sci-fi fans will recognize traces of these ideas from Carl Sagan’s 1985 novel Contact.
The Problem of Senseless Suffering
10. If there were not 10,000 different genetic disorders, and counting. The wrong DNA in the wrong place can prove fatal to those with lackluster genetic heritage. Maladies big and small, especially those occurring throughout one’s life, can usually be traced to irregularities in one or a combination of genes. Some gene-based diseases threaten our quality of life and beleaguer us daily, while others kill us outright with devastating effectiveness. Such malfunctions of our biological makeup account for more than 150,000 babies per year in the U.S. alone who die from birth defects during or shortly after birth. That’s 411 every single day that an all-powerful God must choose not to rescue.
Granted, these tragic circumstances are simply the result of evolution in action paired with imperfect cell repair mechanisms. Unless we were to short-circuit the very processes which keep us humming along, genetic mistakes will continue to be a part of life for the foreseeable future. But surely that doesn’t prevent God from tidying up some of the delinquent DNA we’ve accumulated across evolutionary time. Could a God who fashioned cellular superstructures not rid our species of this “natural evil” that nudges us toward mortality through no fault of our own?
11. If the infant mortality rate (IMR) dropped faster than could be accounted for by scientific advances.IMR is the total number of newborn babies who die under one year of age divided by the total number of births per year. Two hundred years ago, there was a 50 percent chance of your child not surviving past its first year. By 1850, IMR for babies born in America was 217 per 1,000 for whites and 340 for African Americans. By 1950, global IMR was down to 152 per 1,000 babies born (15.2 percent).
It is thanks to advancements in medicine and biomedical science that these numbers have been reduced to 4.3 percent today and continue to fall. Were this rate to experience a sudden sharp drop on a global scale that could not be explained by improvements in healthcare, it might just indicate that God is looking out for us and cares what happens down here.
Yet nothing like this has been observed. New life is still shuttered at staggering rates across the third world from malnutrition, infectious diseases, and a miscellany of genetic factors. One can only imagine how high these numbers have climbed historically, prior to when these types of records were kept. Salvation of these newborns has clearly been delivered by the hands of science, not by any god or goddess.
12. If the people of one religion experienced dramatically less suffering relative to all others. Consider that in 1990 around 12.6 million children died who were under the age of five. In 2011 the under-five toll was 7 million, and this figure is lower by about two-thirds compared with just a couple of centuries prior. One of the leading causes is malnourishment and starvation, which currently affects 800 million people — 11 percent of the world population — many of whom will not survive to the end of the year. Hunger alone accounts for more than a third of child mortality.
To put these figures in perspective, consider that every 4.5 seconds some under-five child will have died somewhere around the world. By the time you have finished reading this essay, and while men and women of faith are thanking God for parking spots and promotions, some several dozen children will have perished in misery, most likely from overwhelmingly Christian countries in sub-Saharan Africa. Yahweh is portrayed in the Bible as the Ultimate Provider, showering manna from the sky to nourish the Israelites in time of need. Once again, we see this deity has apparently grown more callous with time.
If a single faith group were special enough to reap God’s favor, we might expect different outcomes among the world’s religions. Against the harsh realities outlined above, we might see longer life expectancies, lower infant, child, and maternal mortality, fewer epidemics, and an overall higher quality of life for Jain-majority communities, say. Yet religion doesn’t seem to play a role in any of these factors, each of which are better predicted by geography, socioeconomic status, and access to healthcare. If anything it is non-religious societies which predominantly meet these conditions. Indeed, as Greg Gaffin writes in Anarchy Evolution: Faith, Science, and Bad Religion in a World Without God:
“By every objective measure, open, liberal, secular societies are healthier than closed, bigoted, superstitious ones. Countries with a high percentage of nonbelievers are among the freest, most stable, best educated, and healthiest nations on earth. When nations are ranked according to a Human Development Index, which measures such factors as life expectancy, literacy rates, and educational attainment, the five highest-ranked countries — Norway, Sweden, Australia, Canada, and the Netherlands — all have high degrees of nonbelief. Of the fifty countries at the bottom of the index, all are intensely religious.”
13. If we did not have such a somber record of mass extinctions. Our excavation of the past has revealed that the glamour and diversity of life on Earth was punctuated by great loss and collapse. Depending on how you count species, anywhere from 30 billion to 4,000 billion (that’s 4 trillion) have met their demise, which means that 99.99 percent of everything that has ever lived is no longer with us.
The most recent event was the Chicxulub impact marking the Cretaceous-Paleogene (K-Pg) boundary. This 10-mile wide asteroid not only laid the dinosaurs to rest but wiped out 75 percent of all extant species. Yet even this is eclipsed by the Permian-Triassic (P-Tr) extinction, the most ruinous event on record. Swings in climate and geologic activity around 252 mya saw 96 percent of all marine life and 70 percent of terrestrial vertebrates blink out of existence. In taxonomic terms, some 57 percent of all families and 83 percent of all genera along the tree of life went extinct, as did over 90 percent of all species sea, land, and air.
What is the most reasonable inference one can draw from these facts? I submit that an omniamorous creator god is about the last thing one would deduce from such information.
14. If our own species had not been jerked to the precipice of extinction multiple times in our relatively brief time on this planet. Consider man’s evolutionary past. Anatomically modern humans first arose around 200,000 years ago. For our ancestors, life was less a gift than a burdensome, calamitous, and affliction-laden existence. The absence of anything we would call medicine or quality of life meant death was a hurried and unrelenting affair, with average life expectancy hovering below age thirty.
Disasters such as the supervolcanoes of Yellowstone and Lake Toba, genetic diseases, epidemics, and virus outbreaks variously culled our population numbers to the low thousands in a series of bottlenecks that very nearly signaled the death knell for our species. At our nadir, we were but a few thousand casualties short of joining the 99.99 percent of other species in annihilation. And if events had proceeded a bit differently, we might not be here at all.
It was Ambrose Bierce who wrote: “Religions are conclusions for which the facts of nature supply no major premises.” Our universe is no idyll. Nature’s a serial killer, the boldest and most successful that’s ever lived. It’s clever, it’s ruthless, and it’s highly efficient. Indeed, it seems as if the universe was engineered for the express purpose of snuffing out life forms with unmetered brutality. Is such a universe consistent with a benevolent God?3
Christianity’s House of Cards
15. If the Bible were non-discrepant, free of error, and internally consistent. A central feature of revealed religion is that God authors books. He doesn’t code software. He doesn’t produce feature films or compose plays. Rather, within the narrative of Judeo-Christianity, God is said to have inspired a diverse collection of writings sometime between the years 1000 BCE and 135 CE. What might we expect of a corpus inspired by the Creator of the universe? Maybe not one riddled with contradictions and inconsistencies. Given the claims made on its behalf, we would expect to find a level of perfection which transcends that of ordinary, man-made works, and such excellence would be positive evidence in favor of those claims. We do not find this.
No religious texts pass this test.
16. If the Bible, or any purported holy text, contained prescient moral and scientific truths. What about matters of ethics and morality and insights about the physical world? Here again, given the extraordinary claims made on its behalf, the Bible should exhibit an ethical blueprint that transcends the rate of cultural evolution observed across history. Yet on issues such as slavery, the status of women, penalties for various innocuous (and imaginary) crimes, and the treatment of unbelievers, the biblical texts are found to be par for the Bronze Age course.
Consider the issue of slavery. In the time of St. Paul and the other New Testament writers, enslavement was a common and completely accepted social institution, as ubiquitous in Judea, Galilee, and the Roman Empire writ large as stock trading is to our own. What better opportunity to condemn in clear and certain terms and bring an early end to a practice that would haunt and oppress the underprivileged for the better part of the next two thousand years? Yet neither Paul nor any other biblical figure is recorded as saying anything in opposition. Not even Jesus, supposed moral exemplar to the stars, utters a word against slaveholding.4
Likewise, the Bible is bereft of insights about the universe: no scientific precocity, nothing that has stood the test of time. As Sam Harris has noted, there isn’t a single sentence in the Bible that could not be uttered by someone today or that could not have been uttered “by someone for whom a wheelbarrow would have been a breathtaking example of emerging technology.” If within the pages of the Bible or other (prescientific) text we were to find passages on DNA, electricity, principles of infectious disease, astronomical and cosmological truths, references to common descent and DNA, quarks, Higgs or other subatomic particles, then one could easily advance a sensible case for divine inspiration.
And it should be assessed like any other.
As it stands, the Bible, like other primitive works, is a product of its time. Its authors betray a manifest ignorance on matters pertaining to nature and ethical judgment, just as we would expect of a work sprung from the ancient world. The confluence of these problems casts considerable doubt on the very idea that the Judeo-Christian texts are of heavenly origin. If truly these were instructional messages vouchsafed to humanity by an all-knowledgeable, all-loving agency, we should expect to see the apotheosis of ethical counsel, the consummation of moral enlightenment, and the cutting edge in cosmic literacy. We do not find this.
17. If the biblical texts were purely preserved. Most Christians assume their nicely printed and bound book, conveniently translated into modern English idiom, contains the pure, unvarnished words passed down from their time of origin. This could not be further from the truth. In fact, we have not one of the autographs (originals) for any text in either the Old or New Testaments. As with any document from antiquity, the originals were lost or destroyed a long time ago. What survives are copies of the originals several centuries removed from their point of provenance.
When we compare the later manuscripts to our earliest witnesses, we find hundreds of thousands of variants, some material in nature (the alternate endings for Mark’s gospel, the Johanine Comma, the silencing and disesteeming of women in Paul’s epistles), some less so (innocent copy errors and the like). The evidence of our manuscript traditions confirms that these texts have been edited, revised, and redacted down through the centuries, often by way of mistake but also for theological and political motives, and the further back we go in the catalog the more errors that appear. If God deemed it prudent to deliver us a textbook of instruction, then why was the same care not taken in preserving it for us?
“For most people, the Bible is a non-problematic book. What people don’t realize is that they’re reading translations of texts, and we don’t have the originals. Given the circumstance that God didn’t preserve the words, the conclusion seemed inescapable to me that he hadn’t gone to the trouble of inspiring them.” —Bart Ehrman
18. If we had a more reliable historical record of the life and deeds of Jesus. As far as we know, Jesus didn’t leave any writings of his own behind, and neither did any of his disciples (who were most likely illiterate; see here and here) or anyone who knew him. Christians are often surprised to learn that we don’t actually know who wrote the gospels; the titles we see at the top today were added centuries later. The gospel accounts were written anonymously by Greek-speaking persons (read: not Aramaic) several decades after Jesus’ death.
To be fair, Jesus is hardly alone on this score. Our surviving sources for most historical figures are non-autographic, non-eyewitness, and in many cases irreconcilably contradictory. This does not mean historical reconstruction is impossible, but it does complicate the task. Where Jesus differs relative to most figures from the ancient world is, firstly, that accounts of him have come down to us in the form of the gospels, which are largely theological in nature. Particularly compared to other contemporary works by the Roman-era Josephus, Tacitus, Plutarch, or Suetonius, we are not reading rote history when we read the canonical material.
Second, many of the miracles attributed to him we would expect to be externally attested if they did in fact occur. Mark tells of a darkness which covered the earth upon Jesus’ last breath and is strangely specific as to its duration (from noon to three in the afternoon). Matthew describes a rock-splitting earthquake accompanied by a parade of corpses leaving empty tombs behind. Paul informs us that the resurrected Jesus appeared to more than five hundred people at once. Surely these goings-on made it into other writings of the day? Except nowhere outside the Bible do we find mention of any of these miraculous events. Not even the other New Testament writers mention them.
In fact, the only legitimate references we have to Jesus outside the New Testament canon are from the Jewish historian Josephus, writing around 93 CE, and the Roman senator-cum-historian Tacitus, writing in the second century. And neither make any mention of the miracle wonders front and center in the gospel narratives. Taken together, the scattered and contradictory nature of the historical sources calls into question any confidence surrounding the details of his life, leaving the truth about what he said and did largely inaccessible and uncertain.
It’s important to note here that such silence and contradiction are not evidence against the very existence of Jesus as a historical figure. The reality is that Jesus simply did not make that big a splash in his day. That the source material is so scant is only surprising or problematic if one subscribes to Jesus the miracle-worker as opposed to Jesus the obscure, illiterate, penniless Jew whose life was posthumously embellished by his most devoted followers. Thus the fact that we have no extra-canonical sources for Jesus’ miracles merely serves as evidence against the historicity of those miracles, not against the historicity of Jesus himself.5
19. If Christianity were not so divided and had not repeatedly found itself on the wrong side of history, all the while citing divine revelation. Christians claim their God embodies absolute morality, yet they are in absolute disagreement over what those morals are. One would expect a group with a direct landline to the Creator to agree upon moral matters. They do not. And they have not. With no modicum of irony, those with no religion tend to experience much greater unity on ethical matters than do religionists.
In the same way, Christians claim their faith is uniquely characterized by a relationship with God, yet they are in consummate disagreement over God’s nature and God’s will and basic Christian doctrine, testified by the 41,000+ denominations and splinter sects. When it would take the better part of a lifetime or two to sift through all of these non-negotiable disagreements and sub-disagreements, clearly we have missed the revelation. Is God not available for an air-clearing Q&A to set the record straight?
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20. In a certain sense, the foregoing is ultimately beside the point. It stands to reason that an infinitely wise god that made entrance to heaven dependent on proper belief would know exactly what criteria each of us would require. An all-knowing god that craves certain convictions on the part of bipedal mammals and longs for our attention in the form of a personal relationship would doubtless find this essay of marginal utility. An infinitely capable god that cares sincerely about the safe haven of our souls would spare no expense, and leave no measure untaken, in ensuring our demands for evidence had been met.
That the god theists insist is real and present in our world has altogether failed to do so may point to the thin foundation on which these belief systems rest. A god that has made itself impossible to detect — that, indeed, has ostensibly crafted a universe using processes indistinguishable from nature itself — and neglected to act on our behalf when and where such intercession was most desperately needed, undercuts our expectations of a cosmos governed by a benevolent watchman.
“Fix reason firmly in her seat, and call to her tribunal every fact, every opinion. Question with boldness even the existence of a god; because if there be one he must approve of the homage of reason more than that of blindfolded fear.”
—Thomas Jefferson, letter to Peter Carr, 10 August 1787
I challenge my Christian friends to compile a similar list. If practicing theists were genuinely concerned with the truth of their beliefs, they should be able to replicate this exercise. What array of facts, happenings, or circumstances might it take to convince a theist of the truth of atheism?
Interestingly, in the single blind study (where the patients were aware they were being prayed for), the patient’s condition actually worsened. It is thought that anxiety crept in because the patients assumed they should be recovering since they were being prayed for, and when they didn’t, this stressed them out even more than the illness itself.[↩]
That the world contains too much suffering for it to be the creation of a good God is an idea dating back to the days of Epicurus. Often when the argument from evil is raised, the theist will respond by calling attention to all of the goodness and beauty in the world. Consider Van Gogh and Picasso, Roethke and Rachmaninov, Mozart and Chopin and Bach and Miles Davis, or Caravaggio and Rothko, they may intone. But can this not be turned around? To whom, then, should we be grateful for the likes of Elizabeth Bathory, Talat Pasha, Josef Mengele, Osama bin Laden, Adolf Hitler, Kim Il Sung, Nero, Caligula, Ivan the Terrible, Idi Amin, Pol Pot, or Vlad the Impaler?If you would count the former ensemble as evidence for God, in the interest of consistency is it not only fair you should count the latter cast as evidence against God? This thought experiment has been posed by a number of philosophers, including most recently Stephen Law in the form of the “Evil God Challenge” (YouTube animation here; foreword to a new book by John Zande here). The argument contends the following: If goodness is sufficient evidence to rule out the existence of a supremely evil being, then why isn’t evil sufficient evidence to rule out a supremely good being? Try though they might, theists cannot have their cake and eat it too.[↩]
As historian Morton Smith has argued: “There were innumerable slaves of the emperor and of the Roman State; the Jerusalem Temple owned slaves; the High Priest owned slaves (one of them lost an ear in Jesus’ arrest); all of the rich and almost all of the middle class owned slaves. So far as we are told, Jesus never attacked this practice. He took the state of affairs for granted and shaped his parables accordingly. As Jesus presents things, the main problem for the slaves is not to get free, but to win their master’s praise. There seem to have been slave revolts in Palestine and Jordan in Jesus’ youth (Josephus, Bellum, 2:55-65); a miracle-working leader of such a revolt would have attracted a large following. If Jesus had denounced slavery or promised liberation, we should almost certainly have heard of his doing it. We hear nothing, so the most likely supposition is that he said nothing.”[↩]
Myth and legend often, but not always, point to some historical kernel. Just because we have no good reasons to accept the fantastical claims attributed to St. Francis of Assisi, for example — on whose body it is said miraculously appeared stigmata impressed by a seraph with six wings — does not ipso facto give us reason to doubt the very existence of the figure behind them. Mythological accretion over time is common to sacred narratives, however historically rooted those narratives may originally have been. What I have found is that those who are quick to reject the consensus of scholarship (on any question, not just the historical Jesus question) do so because it is ideologically convenient for them to do so.From my perspective, the question “Did Jesus exist?” is an uninteresting one, and I would go so far as to say an irrelevant one, at least for the naturalist, because the question of historicity is subordinate to the much larger questions about supernaturalism, whether gods exist, and so forth. If we have good reasons for thinking the miracles and other supernatural contents of the gospels amount to fiction and fabrication, then should it matter that an itinerant, parabolic sermonizer was perambulating around Galilee two thousand years ago? If the figure to which the gospels point was exclusively human, endowed with no different attributes from you and I, then the question of historicity should strike the naturalist as trivial. If Jesus existed, he was simply another self-styled prophet about whom legendary stories developed. And if Jesus was merely an historicized amalgam of antecedent mythology, the naturalist position is no more or less secure.Of course, the Christian faith is pinned entirely on whether the gospel accounts are historically true as regards the nature of Jesus. So the better question is, “What kind of Jesus existed?” An answer to this question in line with Christian orthodoxy is very difficult to defend. Given how much of the gospel accounts is considered historically dubious — such as the fabrications surrounding Jesus’ birth, in which the Septuagint’s mistranslation of the Hebrew rendering for “young woman” in Isaiah was used by the author of Matthew to render ‘parthenos‘ (‘virgin’); the likely fictitious trial before Pontius Pilate; the three-hour darkness that apparently no contemporary observer noticed; the rock-splitting earthquake that history apparently felt apt to omit; the parades of corpses thronging the streets of Jerusalem for which there exists no extra-canonical account — what confidence do we have in the central tenets of Christian faith that have coalesced around the figure of Jesus, namely that he performed miracles in violation of physical law and physical causality culminating in that pinnacle of contra-physics known as the resurrection? Unfortunately, it doesn’t give us much confidence at all.In short, sure, a rabbi touting himself as the Messiah likely existed with some threadbare connection to the narratives in the gospels, along with the scores of other Messianic figures around that time period who and for whom were claimed many of the same things. But this isn’t what all the hubbub was ever about.
Since my current work in progress is, well, not progressing much at all, I'll post a few chapters--maybe all--from my latest novel (published late fall 2021). Now, to Chapter 1.
A dense fog suffocated the dawn. It seemed I could reach out and touch Rachel’s headstone, yet I was underneath the cemetery’s arched stone entrance two hundred yards away. A bird, a radio speaker, my mind, something from above, kept reminding me of my grandmother’s philosophical mantra. “Live and learn and die and forget it all.” I’m sure my dead wife had forgotten everything, but had she discovered forgiveness? Had she forgiven herself for long ago sins, and had she forgiven me for failing to protect her?
The fog lifted and I realized I was in that netherworld between dreaming and awakening, moving my lips but barely sounding the words. “Oh Rachel, why kill yourself over something that happened half-a-century ago?”
I rolled onto my right side and opened my eyes, semi-surprised. The digital clock on Leah’s nightstand reads 3:58 am. It’s early morning, Saturday, and it has happened again. For the eighth straight week.
Last night I conducted an experiment. I abandoned mine and Rachel’s master bedroom and slept upstairs in our daughter’s room, thinking this would break the two-month established pattern. It had not. I awoke at the four o’clock hour entangled in the same dream clawing my way to a peace and happiness I knew I’d never find.
Other than the editing of my writings—natural for myself, Lee Harding, Yale Law School professor—my first thought every Saturday morning had been this question about my departed wife. It had been almost a year since I found her hanging from an overhead beam in the basement. Her successful suicide had followed her failed attempt via pain pills six months earlier. That was when she’d told me why she wanted to end her life.
I tossed the covers aside and sat along the edge of Leah’s bed. Rachel’s abortion at age 16 was a secret, at least to me. Somehow, I had chalked it up to youthful indiscretion; that’s the short and simple way to restate how I’d adjusted. For Rachel, it was impossible to digest. Or to cast outside her psyche.
I slipped my feet inside my house shoes and exited Leah’s bedroom, grabbing a quick gaze inside Lyndell’s bedroom across the hall. Oh, to go back in time, to happier days, the house bustling with mine and Rachel’s two teenagers, both adopted but happy when we moved to New Haven in 2000 and bought this house.
I did not linger. I descended the stairs, eager to take a shower in the master bathroom before driving to the cemetery. Although I had made progress, this pattern was more than habit. It was an addiction. For the first ten months after Rachel’s suicide, I began each day visiting her at Eastwood Cemetery, always arriving before dawn. Now, and for the past seven weeks, I had painfully reduced my fix to once per week, still arriving every Saturday before sunrise. The next expected step in my therapeutic recovery would be a once per month visit, but I doubted that would ever happen. Neither of us could survive with such infrequent injections: her dose of trust and loyalty I gave her, and my dose of practical needfulness she gave me.
***
I opted to skip the shower. The house was cold. So was I. It had been an unusually warm fall in New England, and I had not yet switched the unit to HEAT. It was time for cooler, if not colder, weather. I was inside our walk-in closet searching for warmer clothes when I heard my cell vibrating. I returned to the bathroom and grabbed my iPhone, face down on the granite vanity. It was odd my mother-in-law was calling so early. It was only 4:20.
“What’s wrong?” I said, knowing the news could not be good. I normally did not skip a cordial greeting.
“A good morning to you, too. I knew you would be up.” Since my student days in law school in the late 70s, I had been an early riser. Rachel and her mother were close. Rosa’s voice, always pleasant, always proper. Like Rachel’s. Both women had been English teachers.
“Sorry. Morning. I have been up for a while. Are you okay?” Rosa and Rob, in their mid-eighties, retired Southern Baptist missionaries, spent most of their married lives in China. They now shared a three-room suite at Bridgewood Gardens, an assisted living facility in Albertville, Alabama.
“I’m fine. We’re fine. Lee, I know this is short notice, but would you have some time to meet, maybe this morning?” It confused me. I live in New Haven, Connecticut. That’s a long way from the Yellowhammer state. I was unaware my in-laws had been planning a trip.
After an unnatural pause, I said, “sure.”
During the next several minutes, Rosa declared she and Rob were about an hour away, in New Rochelle, New York. Two days ago, they had felt “smothered” and planned a road trip, including a visit to see me. It had been too long. Almost a year, to be exact. The weekend we buried Rachel. Before Rosa ended our call, she said, “Lee, there’s also a legal issue we need to run by you.”
I suggested they come to the house around 7:00 but Rosa would not have it: “I don’t want to rekindle those memories, and practically, I don’t want you scurrying around to tidy up the place.”
I’d agreed and first recommended Denny’s on Sawmill Road, then changed my mind to Bella’s, my local favorite. It was downtown New Haven, near the law school. Although it made for a longer drive for us all, the food would be much better.
***
The drive to Eastwood Cemetery was only two miles, something Rachel had thought important when she insisted we purchase our burial plots. I would always believe it was more than coincidence she had demanded we complete our “pre-planning” four months before her death.
I turned left and slowed my speed to five miles per hour before passing beneath the rock archway. Beyond the entrance was sacred ground, according to Gordon, the head caretaker of the twenty-seven acres. The gently rolling hills with intricately aligned rows of headstones always reminded me of a game of dominoes, even though any toppling could not start the process given the widely spaced graves.
Even with minimal light, I could see Gordon already busy. He was loading his lawn mowers, weed eaters, and an assortment of tools on his work trailer when I passed the maintenance shed on my right. We exchanged waves, though I doubted he could see mine.
Rachel’s grave was on Gethsemane Trail. Eastwood had used the Bible as its only source for naming the perfectly designed pathways. The major routes, the tributaries—Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John—formed a square, two running east and west and two north and south, all lying as a circumference on the outer reaches of the twenty-seven-acre tract. The trails sprouted from the tributaries and generally ran east and west.
I drove north on Luke and turned right on Gethsemane. Rachel’s grave was in the middle, on the upper side of the trail. I exited my Tahoe and removed the lawn chair from inside the rear hatch. The sun was just coming up when I positioned myself to the right of the headstone, just outside the stone foot-markers to Rachel’s plot. The thick grass was reaching for the sky. Gordon, the barber, would be along before noon with clippers and shears at the ready.
“Good morning, Rachel Anne.” She always hated me for verbalizing her middle name. I mostly honored her request while she was living, but now I wanted to be mean. Sort of. Since I would not dare cuss her or figuratively give her a beating, I resigned to the dastard-like greeting.
She did not respond but continued her early morning duties. I had always had a vivid imagination, and now was no different. I pictured the tall brunette scurrying around the kitchen before another day of teaching high school English, no doubt spreading an extra layer of mayonnaise on the sandwich she would eat at her desk while reading essays or developing lesson plans.
“You’d be proud of me.” I wondered if other husbands, widowers they’re called, visited their wives’ graves and talked to them as though sitting hand in hand in low slung chairs in burning sand watching the ocean waves roll forward.
“Why?” she said, tossing her silky hair to the side as her eyes stole a glance my way. She filled her Yeti with another cup of coffee, grabbed her lunchbox, blew me a kiss, and waited anxiously for my reply as she opened the back door to the deck.
“I’ve agreed to help Professor Stallings. With the interviewing.” My good friend, twenty years my senior, Bert Stallings, head of the law school’s civil torts department, had long promoted women’s rights. Rachel, while living, was not a big fan, but she was happy I had expanded my social network, something I had trouble doing ever since my childhood friend, Kyle Bennett, had gone missing in tenth grade.
“Good.” Rachel was off to Amity Regional High School without asking a single follow-up question.
I poured a cup of coffee from my old green Thermos. I had loved Rachel since the ninth grade. That was my secret. It was not until we were both in college that I shared my early high school infatuation.
It had happened suddenly, at first sight. It was the first day of school, a hot and muggy August morning in Mrs. Stamps’ English class. I’m sure I was a distant planet to the smart sounding girl sitting across the aisle and one seat forward. Probably, I was an undiscovered planet. Rachel was the prettiest girl I’d ever seen. Later, at the midmorning break, I learned from Kyle that she and her brother, along with their missionary parents, had returned from China for a two-year furlough.
It was six years later, at the University of Virginia, that we had our first conversation. We both had been students living in Charlottesville for a year and a half, wholly unaware of the other’s presence, before our chance meeting in the Student Union. Rachel always called it a miracle. Less than a month later, we had our first date. By the end of summer, after our sophomore year, we married.
Another old memory arrived. During our ninth and tenth-grade years, I never generated the courage to talk to Rachel, much less ask her for a date. Eleventh grader Ray Archer had latched onto her by the second week of ninth grade. That was 1968. Now that I think about it, Rachel and family returned to China shortly after Christmas of tenth grade. No doubt breaking Ray’s heart.
My right leg suddenly cramped. Instantly I stood. The remains of my Thermos spilled onto the ground. I walked twice around Rachel’s grave to relieve the pain. I hated getting older. It was awful to be sixty-six, not that I was in poor health, but because of the mental pressure. I simply could not shake my guilt. Although Rachel had consoled me after her failed suicide attempt and surprise confession, I still strongly believed I was at fault. I should have helped the woman I had fallen in love with at first sight. It was my fault she had not found peace during those stressful six months before she toppled the chair beneath her noose. These guilty, gut-wrenching feelings were like what I had felt when Kyle had gone missing. My firm belief was that I had failed my best friend. After his disappearance, I was alone. I am alone now after Rachel’s suicide. The bottom line is, neither Kyle nor Rachel could trust me as a friend.
I stood for the longest next to Rachel’s headstone. Facing east, I felt the rising sun as though I was two feet from a heat lamp. I removed my hat, keeping my eyes closed. Until the depressing thoughts attacked. I reopened my eyes when the image appeared: toppled chair, rope, the limp body of the woman I loved, the one who kept me at a distance. My dead wife’s secrets proved we had never been truly intimate.
I returned to my lawn chair, this time facing west, and removed the Sand Mountain Reporter from my leather binder. Rachel insisted I read the obituaries from our hometown newspaper. It was Thursday’s edition. As usual, it was thin, two sections, maybe ten or twelve-pages total.
Local deaths were always on page 3. I turned there automatically as usual, hardly glancing at the front page. I started at the top. Rachel insisted I read every one. Aloud.
“Norma Jean Silvers of Douglas, passed away peacefully at home on Sunday, November 1, 2020. She was 93 years of age.” After reading Norma’s civic and social club memberships and leadership roles, I skipped her education, employment, and religious history. I hoped Rachel didn’t mind. The SMR could get rather windy.
Jorene Horton was up next. I lost my place when my iPhone rang. It was probably Rosa reminding me to bring the book she had asked me to mail. That was nearly a month ago, and I was still searching for it in Rachel’s library.
I stood and removed my cell from my front left pocket. It was Gordon, probably using the old Samsung I’d given him Labor Day as a birthday present.
“Hey my friend. Sorry I didn’t stop to chat when I arrived.”
“Not’s a problem. I seed you and hope you’s well.” Gordon was humble, the most decent person I knew. He had been caretaker at Eastwood since he was a teenager. I did not know how old he was now, but he’d told me the only time he’d been away from the cemetery was during the “big war.” Although I had never seen it, Gordon lives alone in a little cabin through a patch of hickory trees on the northwest corner of the cemetery, out-of-sight from the intersection of Matthew and John.
We talked for at least five minutes before he asked if starting his mower would upset me. He promised he would be almost out of earshot and would start on the far east end of Gethsemane. Of course, I did not mind.
I would have invited him over for a cup of coffee, but I was all out, and I was only halfway through the obits. I wished him well, but he’d already ended our call.
I checked the time before pocketing my iPhone. It was 6:16. Dang, I had to go. I folded the newspaper and tucked it inside my binder. “Sorry Rachel, I know you’ll understand my rush. Mom and Pop are in town. We’re meeting for breakfast. I sure wish you could join us.”