Novel Excerpts–The Boaz Secrets, Chapter 18

The primary aim of the "Novel Excerpts" blog category is to showcase my creative writing, specifically from the novels I've written. Hopefully, these posts will provide a glimpse into my storytelling style, themes, and narrative skills. It's an opportunity to share my artistic expressions and the worlds I've created through my novels.
The Boaz Secrets, written in 2018, is my third novel. I'll post a chapter a day over the next few weeks.

Book Blurb

Fifteen year-old Matt Benson moves with Robert, his widowed father, to Boaz, Alabama for one year as Robert conducts research on Southern Baptist Fundamentalism.  Robert, a professor of Bible History and new Testament Theology at the University of Chicago’s Divinity School enlists Matt to assist him as an undercover agent at First Baptist Church of Christ.  Matt’s job is to befriend the most active young person in the Church’s youth group and learn the heart and mind of teenagers growing up as fundamentalist Southern Baptists.

Olivia Tillman is the fourteen year old daughter of Betty and Walter Tillman.  He is the pastor of First Baptist Church of Christ.  Robert and Matt move to Boaz in June 1970, and before high school begins in mid-August, Matt and Olivia become fast friends.   Olivia’s life is centered around her faith, her family, and her friends.  She is struck with Matt and his doubts and vows to win him to Christ.  Over the next year, Matt and Olivia’s relationship blossoms into more than a teenage romance, despite their different religious beliefs. 

June 1971 and Matt’s return to Chicago comes too quickly, but the two teenagers vow to never lose what they have, even promising to reunite at college in three years after Olivia graduates from Boaz High School.

The Boaz Secrets is told from the perspective of past and present.  The story alternates between 1970-1971, and 2017-2018.  After Matt left Boaz in June 1971, life happened and Olivia and Matt’s plans fell apart.  However, in December 2017, their lives crossed again, almost miraculously, and they have a month in Boaz to catch up on forty-six years of being apart.  They attempt to discover whether their teenage love can be rekindled and transformed into an adult romance even though Matt is 63 and Olivia is 61.

In 2017, Olivia and Matt are quick to learn they are vastly different people than they were as fifteen and sixteen year old teenagers– especially, when it comes to religion and faith.  Will these religious differences unite them?  The real issue is the secret Olivia has kept.  Will Matt’s discovery destroy any chance he and Olivia have of rekindling their teenage relationship?

Chapter 18

December 17, 2017

The walk home from Warren and Tiffany’s had the opposite effect than my earlier walk to their house.  I was almost sweating as I reached my front porch and unlocked the door.  No doubt in my mind, Rickie’s words, “Rumor was she was pregnant by John Ericson,” had pierced my mind and heart like a flaming arrow.

I didn’t sleep at all.  For hours I tossed and turned on my sleeping bag.  I finally got up at 3:30 a.m., made a pot of coffee, and sat in my ‘Alabama’ beanbag chair.  My mind was spewing out every imaginable what-if scenario it could, even attempting to go rouge on me offering up little tips on how to find the truth.  ‘Sit in the Alabama Crimson Tide chair.  It knows the truth, it knows because John spent four years at the University of Alabama.’  It was crazy stupid.  By sunrise I had solid proof that hearing an unexpected statement could throw one’s seemingly organized, structured, and predictable life, into a tailspin.  One, almost like falling out of an airplane without a parachute.

By 8:30 a.m., I had drunk more coffee than any one person should consume.  I think it helped to counter the illogical leaps my mind was experiencing and offered some direction.  It may not have been the coffee at all. 

John, Paul, and I had exchanged cell phone numbers before we all went our separate ways outside the Cracker Barrel in Trussville.  The two of them had even invited Olivia and me to come join them for a few days as they hiked the Appalachian Trail.  Olivia had quickly declined saying that she was too afraid of bears and snakes.  She didn’t care if it was winter.  I had indicated to John and Paul some interest in spending at least one day and night with them out on the trail.

John answered on the second ring.  Even though it was almost 10:00 a.m. in Georgia, they were not yet hiking.  John laughed saying that he and Paul were not as tough as they used to be.  In fact, yesterday afternoon they had left the main trail and hiked into Ellijay and found a Bed and Breakfast.  Within five minutes I had spoken to both John and Paul and had arranged to meet them, where they were, in four hours.  Google Maps said that it was less than a three-hour drive, but I wanted to allow myself plenty of time.

I had called Olivia before I left Boaz.  I told her about my spur of the moment decision.  At first, I started to tell her a little fib about what I was doing or where I was going, just to not raise the possibility of her becoming suspicious, but I realized that it was more than possible for her to be talking with her two boys.  Anyway, she knew John, Paul, and I had discussed the possibilities of me joining them for a day or so.  As I drove for nearly three hours I attempted to plan my every move.  Of course, I wanted to spend quality time with my boys.  I still clung to Olivia’s story.  What reason would she have to lie to me?  If I was not the father, why would she tell me I was?  Maybe she didn’t know.  Maybe she thought I was the father.  She could think this even if her and John had had sex themselves.  I simply couldn’t wrap my head around the notion of her and John being intimate.  It didn’t fit at all.  I had almost a perfect memory of Olivia when we were teenagers, her in the ninth grade and me in the eleventh.  I was certain she would not have been having sex with John.  Anyone.  Then, it dawned on me.  What if I was wrong?  What if her and John had had this dirty little secret?  They were sexually active.  And, what if they had safe sex?  I hated that phrase.  Meaning, John always used a condom.  And, I hadn’t.  The night before Dad and I had left for Chicago, Olivia and I had had unprotected sex.  The situation had surprised us both.  Not the being alone, but our feelings knowing we would likely not see each other for months and months, possibly up to three years.  Our emotions had taken over and, I remembered Olivia’s words in response to my concern that “I don’t have a, you know what.”  It was the most awkward statement I had ever made.  She had said, “Matt, I know this is wrong, but I also know it is right.  We are already one in spirit.  I want to make us one in body.”  It had surprised me.  It hadn’t sounded like the Olivia I had known for nearly a year.  As I neared Ellijay I concluded that someway Olivia knew beyond all doubt that John and Paul were our children.  I was their father.  Ericson wasn’t.  As I parked and walked toward the front porch of The Martyn House Bed and Breakfast, I knew that my love for Olivia would have no trouble forgiving her even if she had sex with John Ericson.

John and Paul were, as agreed, waiting for me in the great room.  The Inn was a huge log cabin structure with probably the biggest fireplace I had ever seen.  It was massive.  It’s rock face stretched the entire width of the far wall.  John and Paul were sitting at a table next to a row of floor-to-ceiling windows along the rear of the lodge.  They saw me as I stood looking at the fireplace and walked over.  We exchanged our man-hugs and they invited me to join them.  They asked about Olivia and relayed their disappointment that she hadn’t come.  “Please know it’s not anything personal.  If anything, it was my fault.  I didn’t really give her a chance.  If she had known that hiking wasn’t on the agenda she would have killed me to come.”

The three of us spent thirty or so minutes updating each other on our careers.  John seemed especially interested in my genetics research.  Paul sit silent as John and I talked about how uncanny it was that Charles Darwin’s theory was proven correct even though he had no knowledge at all about genetics.  Paul finally interrupted his brother and said, “even if Mr. Darwin’s theory was correct, although I totally doubt that it was, it changes nothing.  God created Adam and Eve just as Genesis says.  That’s where humans began.  Please don’t tell me that I came from an ape.”

I was anticipating a big row between John and Paul.  I had read quite a bit on Lee Berger’s discovery in the Rising Star cave in South Africa sometime in 2014.  The many bones found deep in the cave shared similar characteristics with both humans and apes.  John had said enough about his work with Berger when Olivia and I had met him and Paul in Birmingham.  I knew John had played some role in Berger’s bone recovery project.  The man, ape, man/ape had been dubbed, Naledi.  I was surprised when Paul smiled at John and said, “Matt, don’t worry that John and I will kill each other.  We have a unique relationship.  We can argue till the sun goes down or it falls out of the sky, but we won’t get angry and we won’t love each other any less.  We both know we will never change each other’s minds, but we still try nonetheless.  We just like to argue.  He makes stuff up and I simply stick to the facts.”

John couldn’t resist.  “Paul is the typical Bible thumper, the typical Christian fundamentalist.  He has read only one book, the Bible, and thinks it holds all the information he will ever need.  He is a spitting image of an AD 90 desert peasant.”

I didn’t know what to say but I knew I had to say something.  “I think it is wonderful that you two are so close and can agree to disagree.  Let me go ahead and confess that I don’t believe in God and that I fully believe in the truth of Darwin’s work, evolution by natural selection.  It’s the best theory ever offered for how life emerged and has continued to change over millions of years.”

“You and your son John may think you can gang up on me but I have God on my side.”  Paul said.  Seriously, but then burst into a laugh.

“Brother, how many times do I have to tell you that you didn’t come from an ape.  The truth is that humans and apes have a common ancestor.  It is a ridiculous argument for someone to say, “if I evolved from an ape, why are there still apes?”  John asked.

“The problem you never want to address is that all the fossil discoveries, what you and your peers consider to be evidence that humans have evolved from, for simplicities sake let me say, an ape-like creature, doesn’t truly address homo sapiens.  Those fossils deal with animals not humans.”  Paul said standing up and turning towards the tall windows behind him.

“Paul, your belief that God, in an instant, created Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden defies all logic and reason.  And, scientific fact.”

I decided to just listen.  I wanted to witness whether these two, my sons, could so clearly disagree but continue to respect and love each other.

“John, you have absolutely no proof that an ape-like creature turned into a human.”

“Actually, we do.  The fossil records prove this.”  John added.  I know you will never look openly and honestly at the facts, the evidence I speak of.  By the way, take the time to read up on Naledi.  What are you afraid of?  What you keep your head in the sand over is the huge problem you would have to recognize that there never was an Adam and an Eve.  What you know, even though, again, you will never admit it, is the absence of an Adam and Eve destroys Christianity.  If they didn’t exist, there was no ‘Fall’ as you call it.  If there was no ‘Fall,’ there was no need for Christ to come and save mankind.  Paul, my dear brother, your Bible, its credibility, now rests on the tip of a pinhead.  Science has filled gap after gap, the holes you and your peers have tried to use in arguing the believability of your one and only book.  Here’s something for you.  I admit, your good book is holy.  It is wholly, that’s with a w, wholly man made.”

Paul turned and looked back at John and me.  “The Word says, ‘in the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.’”  He then stopped.  I could tell he wanted his and John’s conversation to continue.  I suspect Paul had a belly-full to lay out, here, something akin to a sermon.  However, he put all that aside to say, “John, you and I can continue this discussion after Matt leaves tomorrow.”

But, John acted as though he didn’t hear Paul and kept going drilling further and further.  It was getting old.

For the next fifteen minutes I listened as John and Paul went back and forth, almost like a football game.  John on offense, Paul defending.  Then the ball changed hands.

Finally, John said, it’s nearly 6:00, let’s go to the dining room.  They’re having Buffalo T-Bone steaks.”

“I’m ready to share a meal with my two boys.”  I said, glad that the two hadn’t come to blows.

John looked at me.  “I want to hear why you and Olivia never got together.”

We three did enjoy a great meal.  The Buffalo steaks were perfect, having been cooked over a wood fire.  I savored every moment with my two boys.  Over an hour passed with John and Paul appearing to savor every word I shared about my love for Olivia and how she had terminated our relationship.  By the time we each finished a huge slice of coconut pie, in remembrance of our dear Olivia, we were stuffed.  

As we got up to leave the almost empty dining room, John and Paul turned away towards the entrance long enough for me to use each of their cloth napkins to grab the forks they had used during our meal.  After I reached my room, I removed them from my pants pockets and sealed them separately in two plastic zip-lock bags (I thought of them as a policeman’s evidence bag) that I had retrieved from my suitcase in Boaz.  In two days, my lab at the University of Chicago would be conducting DNA analysis. 

The first step of my plan was unfolding.  I had to know whether I was the biological father of John and Paul Cummins.

02/02/24 Biking & Listening

Here’s today’s bike ride metrics. Temperature at beginning of ride: 64 degrees. Sunny.


Photos from today’s ride:

None today.

Why I ride:

Biking is something I both love and hate. The conflicting emotions arise from the undeniable physical effort it demands. However, this exertion is precisely what makes it an excellent form of exercise. Most days, I dedicate over an hour to my cycling routine, and in doing so, I’ve discovered a unique opportunity to enjoy a good book or podcast. The rhythmic pedaling and the wind against my face create a calming backdrop that allows me to fully immerse myself in the content. In these moments, the time spent on the bike seems worthwhile, as I can’t help but appreciate the mental and physical rewards it offers.

I especially like having ridden. The post-biking feeling is one of pure satisfaction. The endorphin rush, coupled with a sense of accomplishment, makes the initial struggle and fatigue worthwhile. As I dismount and catch my breath, I relish the sensation of having conquered the challenge, both physically and mentally. It’s a reminder that the things we sometimes love to hate can often be the ones that bring us the most fulfillment. In the end, the love-hate relationship with biking only deepens my appreciation for the sport, as it continually pushes me to overcome my own limitations and embrace the rewards that follow the effort.


Why you should ride:

Encourages Relaxation:

Cycling is not just a form of physical exercise; it also has a profound ability to encourage relaxation. Here are various ways in which cycling contributes to a relaxed state of mind and body:

  • Physical Activity and Stress Reduction: Engaging in physical activities like cycling can reduce the body’s stress responses. Exercise triggers the release of endorphins, the body’s natural painkillers and mood elevators, which promote relaxation. The physical effort of cycling also helps to use up the energy created by stress, aiding in calming the body.
  • Rhythmic Pedaling as a Meditative Practice: The repetitive nature of cycling, with its steady, rhythmic pedaling, can have a meditative effect. This rhythmic motion can help focus the mind, drawing attention away from stressful thoughts and allowing a sense of calm.
  • Outdoor and Nature Exposure: Cycling outdoors, especially in natural or scenic settings, can enhance relaxation. Being in nature is known to reduce stress and promote a sense of peace. The sights, sounds, and smells of the outdoors can be very soothing.
  • Mindfulness and Presence: Cycling requires a level of present-moment awareness, which is a key aspect of mindfulness. Practicing mindfulness has been shown to reduce stress and promote relaxation. When cycling, the focus on the immediate environment and bodily sensations can help achieve this state.
  • Cardiovascular Health Benefits: Regular cycling improves cardiovascular health, which can help in reducing tension in the body. A healthier heart and circulatory system can contribute to a more relaxed state overall.
  • Reduces Mental Clutter: A bike ride offers a break from daily routines and responsibilities, providing an opportunity to clear the mind. This mental break can be refreshing and relaxing, especially after a long day or during stressful periods.
  • Social Relaxation: For those who enjoy group rides, the social aspect of cycling can be relaxing. Social interactions and the sense of community found in cycling groups can contribute to overall relaxation and well-being.
  • Achievement and Satisfaction: Completing a challenging ride or reaching a cycling goal can bring about a sense of achievement and satisfaction. This positive feeling can promote a relaxed state, as it counters feelings of stress and anxiety.
  • End of Ride Relaxation Response: After a cycling session, the body often experiences a natural relaxation response. The decrease in physical activity coupled with the sense of accomplishment can lead to a profound state of relaxation.
  • Improves Sleep Quality: As cycling improves sleep quality, it indirectly promotes relaxation. Better sleep means the body is better rested and more capable of handling stress, leading to a more relaxed state during waking hours.

In summary, cycling’s ability to encourage relaxation is multifaceted, combining physical, mental, and emotional elements. By incorporating regular cycling into one’s lifestyle, it’s possible to cultivate a more relaxed state of being, beneficial for overall health and well-being.


Please watch

Here’s a couple of links to groups I like. Hopefully, they’ll encourage you to start riding a bike, no matter your age.

Cycling for those aged 70+(opens in a new tab)


Solitary Cycling(opens in a new tab)


My bike:

A Rockhopper by Specialized. I purchased it November 2021 from Venture Out in Guntersville; Mike is top notch! So is the bike. The ‘old’ man seat was salvaged from an old Walmart bike. Seat replaced with new one from Venture Out.


What I’m listening to:

NONFICTION

Creative writing craft books:

Secrets to Editing Success by K. Stanley and L. Cooke

Amazon abstract:

The Creative Story Editing Method

SECRETS TO EDITING SUCCESS teaches you how to become an exceptional story editor. Whether you’re editing your own story or are an editor wanting your clients to succeed, this book shows you how to make all stories better.

In SECRETS TO EDITING SUCCESS, you will learn how to structurally edit a manuscript starting by evaluating at the story level and then focusing at the scene level, resulting in actionable advice.

SECRETS TO EDITING SUCCESS shows you the fastest, most comprehensive route to a successful story edit. You’ll discover the Fictionary Story Editing process and use the 38 Fictionary Story Elements.

Give your draft a creative story edit, so it outperforms the other great books being published today. Use SECRETS to EDITING SUCCESS to edit any novel into a bestseller.

Praise for Secrets to Editing Success

“One of the most frequent questions a novelist asks is “Does my draft contain a story?” Stanley and Cooke have written a practical guide that shows you how to answer that question. Secrets to Editing Success gives you actionable advice and a process to edit and revise your novel so that you can take your novel draft and turn it into a publishable book.”

Grant Faulkner, Executive Director of National Novel Writing Month

“Secrets to Editing Success is every editor’s dream. Whether you’re a new author reviewing your first book or professional editor, this is without doubt, the most comprehensive and detailed guide to editing I’ve ever had the pleasure of reading. This book will hold your hand, explain, clarify and give you step by step instructions for editing your novel. Paired best when using the incomparable developmental editing software Fictionary, this guide will change your editing life. Read it. Immediately.”

Sacha Black, Rebel Author Podcast

Blinkest summaries

None today.

Podcasts:

FICTION

Novels:

Listening to a novel draft I’m editing.

Blinkest fiction book summaries:

None today.

Music:

None today.


Here’s a few photos from previous riding adventures:

Novel Excerpts–The Boaz Secrets, Chapter 17

The primary aim of the "Novel Excerpts" blog category is to showcase my creative writing, specifically from the novels I've written. Hopefully, these posts will provide a glimpse into my storytelling style, themes, and narrative skills. It's an opportunity to share my artistic expressions and the worlds I've created through my novels.
The Boaz Secrets, written in 2018, is my third novel. I'll post a chapter a day over the next few weeks.

Book Blurb

Fifteen year-old Matt Benson moves with Robert, his widowed father, to Boaz, Alabama for one year as Robert conducts research on Southern Baptist Fundamentalism.  Robert, a professor of Bible History and new Testament Theology at the University of Chicago’s Divinity School enlists Matt to assist him as an undercover agent at First Baptist Church of Christ.  Matt’s job is to befriend the most active young person in the Church’s youth group and learn the heart and mind of teenagers growing up as fundamentalist Southern Baptists.

Olivia Tillman is the fourteen year old daughter of Betty and Walter Tillman.  He is the pastor of First Baptist Church of Christ.  Robert and Matt move to Boaz in June 1970, and before high school begins in mid-August, Matt and Olivia become fast friends.   Olivia’s life is centered around her faith, her family, and her friends.  She is struck with Matt and his doubts and vows to win him to Christ.  Over the next year, Matt and Olivia’s relationship blossoms into more than a teenage romance, despite their different religious beliefs. 

June 1971 and Matt’s return to Chicago comes too quickly, but the two teenagers vow to never lose what they have, even promising to reunite at college in three years after Olivia graduates from Boaz High School.

The Boaz Secrets is told from the perspective of past and present.  The story alternates between 1970-1971, and 2017-2018.  After Matt left Boaz in June 1971, life happened and Olivia and Matt’s plans fell apart.  However, in December 2017, their lives crossed again, almost miraculously, and they have a month in Boaz to catch up on forty-six years of being apart.  They attempt to discover whether their teenage love can be rekindled and transformed into an adult romance even though Matt is 63 and Olivia is 61.

In 2017, Olivia and Matt are quick to learn they are vastly different people than they were as fifteen and sixteen year old teenagers– especially, when it comes to religion and faith.  Will these religious differences unite them?  The real issue is the secret Olivia has kept.  Will Matt’s discovery destroy any chance he and Olivia have of rekindling their teenage relationship?

Chapter 17

January 1971

Saturday afternoon I had escaped from the Lighthouse and Olivia’s attempt to learn about my response to Mr. Johnson’s Poetry assignment.  After she had asked me to tell her about my Who Made God? poem, Brother Randy had called out to her from the back of the room.  It was both a funny and weird moment.  I felt as though God Himself had rescued me with his booming voice from the Heavens.  The light rain that had begun when the Flaming Five had left didn’t hurt my cause, my need to flee.  As Olivia walked away, I told her I had to leave but I would call her tomorrow afternoon after church and she would learn who made God.

After returning home, I worked on my poem for over an hour before Dad and I made our weekly trip to the Dairy Queen.  It was becoming a tradition.  The trip, along with sour kraut and extra onions on a foot-long hot-dog, was becoming my weekend meal of choice.  By 10:30 a.m., right as the local TV news broadcast ended, my stomach revolted.  The rest of the night was spent alternating between trips to the bathroom and laying across my bed wishing I would die.  Dad said it was probably food-poisoning and would have to run its course.  That it did.  By sunrise, the rain had ended, and the evil bug had reached its destination.  I finally dosed off to sleep and would probably have slept until Monday morning if Dad had not awakened me when he returned from church.  It was a rare moment when I was nostalgic for Sunday School and preaching but as I got up and showered all I could think about was missing Olivia this morning, even though I rarely caught a glimpse of her on Sunday mornings.  I guess, it was just the knowing that she was near.  No matter if I never got to go out with her, I was realizing more and more how she was crawling inside every cell of my being.

Dad made me eat a small bowl of chicken soup that he had managed to prepare, and to drink some Coca Cola.  My stomach was much better.  I fought the urge to watch TV and slumber on the couch but instead retreated to my bedroom to continue drafting my “Who Made God?” poem.  I was torn.  I couldn’t wait to call Olivia, just to hear her voice.  But, I was extra reluctant today to speak to her about God.  I knew she would attempt to persuade me that God had always existed.  She would also try out her best evangelical tricks to persuade me that I needed to accept Jesus by faith.

I knew what I wanted to write but had trouble since starting the assignment.  Yesterday, I ditched my whole idea of trying to rhyme every other line.  I simply wasn’t ready for this more intense poetry method.  Mr. Johnson had said that a poem is what you say it is.  There are no rules.  I really liked that.  I really hated rules even though I was pretty good at following most all of Dad’s.  Instead of rhyming, I chose prose poetry.  And, I chose to let my dear departed Mother help me get going.  She was a devout Catholic and had told me about Thomas Aquinas, probably one of the most famous Catholics.  He was still well respected by the Pope and all his underlings.  Mother had told me about Aquinas’ five proofs for the existence of God.  She had trusted old Thomas nearly as much as she did God.  His first three proofs were all similar sounding to me.  They involve infinite regress.  This was a term I had just learned about.  Dad had been able to locate for me an article by a Harvard scholar that he liked and trusted.  The scholar had described infinite regress as a continual question arising the farther one goes back in time.  Aquinas had said that “nothing moves without a prior movement.”  He said something similar about cause and effect, “nothing is caused by itself, every effect has a prior cause.”  Whether something is moved or caused, it leads back and back in time to something that moved something or caused something.  Aquinas argued, with no real proof that I could ever gather, that God was the first mover or the first cause, something that got everything started.  To me, Aquinas argument was feigned.  I recalled how I had asked Mother how Aquinas knew this.  She had answered, “Faith.  He knew this by faith.”  To me, then and now, that was not a valid answer.  The only logical and true definition of faith was believing something without evidence, not because of evidence.

The first line of my poem read, “Faith made God, and man made faith.”  Aquinas also had argued that if we could go back in time far enough we would discover that there were no physical things in existence.  He argued that, again according to the scholar’s article, “since physical things exist now, there must have been something non-physical to bring them into existence, and that something is what we call God.”  As I was contemplating how to create a visual of what Aquinas believed, here what was referred to as his Cosmological Argument, I realized, as just a 16-year-old, that Aquinas must have been deranged.  Where did he learn basic logic?  I reminded myself that logic wasn’t needed in Christianity, that it was evil.  I couldn’t help but think of Brother G’s talk on the first day of school and how Martin Luther had warned Christians against using reason in their contemplation and relationship with God. 

After turning my attention to Aquinas’ fourth and fifth proofs, the argument from degree, and the teleological argument or argument from design, I realized that I wasn’t going about this, my poetry writing assignment, in the right way.  I was turning this into more of a research project.  I was not using my imagination at all.  I was not attempting to connect seemingly unlike things as Mr. Johnson had instructed.  I need to be more spontaneous.  I sat with my eyes closed for at least five minutes.  The thought crossed my mind that I had started off thinking wrong.  God, which God?  What if I didn’t start with the Christian God?  Weren’t there, hadn’t there been hundreds and hundreds of different gods over the years?  Couldn’t I start with a wind god or a rain god or a sun god?  I wasn’t making much progress.  I was already contemplating my next poem, “Where is God Now?”

Somewhat frustrated, I stood up and was walking to the kitchen for a little more Coca Cola when the phone rang.  Dad hollered over the blaring football game that it was for me. 

“Hello.”

“Matt, it’s Olivia.  I’m so upset.  I hope you don’t mind me calling.”  I could barely understand what she was saying.  She seemed to be both crying and out of breath.

“It’s okay.  I was working on my poem.  I was going to call you in a little while.  Why are you upset?”

“You haven’t heard?”  Olivia said, sounding more like her natural voice.  “The horrible car wreck.  Last night.”

“No.  I’ve been here all day.  I was sick last night and couldn’t come to church this morning.  What are you talking about?”  I said realizing that I had never heard Olivia being so incoherent.

“Kyle Keller and his younger brother Kent, and Brenda Simmons, and Tina Williams were all killed late yesterday afternoon.  Kyle and Brenda are seniors and Kent and Tina are my age, ninth graders.”

“What happened?”  I was searching my mind for what to say.  I had never had such a conversation.

“Nobody knows for sure, but the police are saying that Kyle was going too fast for the curve on Bruce Road, given the rain.  Matt, they found beer cans in the car.  Here’s what is tearing me up.  They don’t even know for sure who was driving.  If the four of them hadn’t had their school ID cards the police wouldn’t have known who they were.  They were so mangled.”

“I’m so sorry.  Were you friends with Kent and Tina?”  After I said it, I recognized that it was a dumb question.  What relevance was Olivia’s friendship.  If the three of them were not friends, would the accident and Kent and Tina’s death have been no big deal. 

“Tina had just started coming to youth group.  She was quiet.  Matt, she was saved only last week.  My heart goes out to her family.  Why would this happen?”

I was surprised that Olivia would ask this question, especially that she would ask it of me.  “I don’t know.  From what you just said it sounds like Kyle, or whoever was driving, made some bad decisions.  I hate to say it but, to me, bad decisions usually have bad consequences.  I suspect you would have a different take on what happened and why.”

“I usually do.  This is the first time I have ever had someone so close to me to die.   Before, I’ve always thought, ‘God is mysterious, we do not know, and cannot know what He does, and why He does things the way He does, but we can trust Him because He loves His children.’”

I don’t know if I was simply trying to be a smart ass or what, but I responded, so low Olivia couldn’t have heard me: “Maybe God needed Tina to help him hand out angel’s wings in Heaven.”

“Matt, I didn’t hear you, but were you making fun of me?  I need you to console me, to help me get through this.  You are the only boy I can confide in.”

“Do you want me to come over?”

“Could you?  Mother said it would be okay.  I asked her before I called.”

“I’ll be there in five minutes.  Olivia, I’m glad you called.”

I rode my bike and was excited about seeing her and that she had asked me to come to her, but my heart went out to the families of the teenagers who had died a horrible death.

02/01/24 Biking & Listening

Here’s today’s bike ride metrics. Temperature at beginning of ride: 51 degrees. Sunny.


Photos from today’s ride:

None today.

Why I ride:

Biking is something I both love and hate. The conflicting emotions arise from the undeniable physical effort it demands. However, this exertion is precisely what makes it an excellent form of exercise. Most days, I dedicate over an hour to my cycling routine, and in doing so, I’ve discovered a unique opportunity to enjoy a good book or podcast. The rhythmic pedaling and the wind against my face create a calming backdrop that allows me to fully immerse myself in the content. In these moments, the time spent on the bike seems worthwhile, as I can’t help but appreciate the mental and physical rewards it offers.

I especially like having ridden. The post-biking feeling is one of pure satisfaction. The endorphin rush, coupled with a sense of accomplishment, makes the initial struggle and fatigue worthwhile. As I dismount and catch my breath, I relish the sensation of having conquered the challenge, both physically and mentally. It’s a reminder that the things we sometimes love to hate can often be the ones that bring us the most fulfillment. In the end, the love-hate relationship with biking only deepens my appreciation for the sport, as it continually pushes me to overcome my own limitations and embrace the rewards that follow the effort.


Why you should ride:

Encourages Relaxation:

Cycling is not just a form of physical exercise; it also has a profound ability to encourage relaxation. Here are various ways in which cycling contributes to a relaxed state of mind and body:

  • Physical Activity and Stress Reduction: Engaging in physical activities like cycling can reduce the body’s stress responses. Exercise triggers the release of endorphins, the body’s natural painkillers and mood elevators, which promote relaxation. The physical effort of cycling also helps to use up the energy created by stress, aiding in calming the body.
  • Rhythmic Pedaling as a Meditative Practice: The repetitive nature of cycling, with its steady, rhythmic pedaling, can have a meditative effect. This rhythmic motion can help focus the mind, drawing attention away from stressful thoughts and allowing a sense of calm.
  • Outdoor and Nature Exposure: Cycling outdoors, especially in natural or scenic settings, can enhance relaxation. Being in nature is known to reduce stress and promote a sense of peace. The sights, sounds, and smells of the outdoors can be very soothing.
  • Mindfulness and Presence: Cycling requires a level of present-moment awareness, which is a key aspect of mindfulness. Practicing mindfulness has been shown to reduce stress and promote relaxation. When cycling, the focus on the immediate environment and bodily sensations can help achieve this state.
  • Cardiovascular Health Benefits: Regular cycling improves cardiovascular health, which can help in reducing tension in the body. A healthier heart and circulatory system can contribute to a more relaxed state overall.
  • Reduces Mental Clutter: A bike ride offers a break from daily routines and responsibilities, providing an opportunity to clear the mind. This mental break can be refreshing and relaxing, especially after a long day or during stressful periods.
  • Social Relaxation: For those who enjoy group rides, the social aspect of cycling can be relaxing. Social interactions and the sense of community found in cycling groups can contribute to overall relaxation and well-being.
  • Achievement and Satisfaction: Completing a challenging ride or reaching a cycling goal can bring about a sense of achievement and satisfaction. This positive feeling can promote a relaxed state, as it counters feelings of stress and anxiety.
  • End of Ride Relaxation Response: After a cycling session, the body often experiences a natural relaxation response. The decrease in physical activity coupled with the sense of accomplishment can lead to a profound state of relaxation.
  • Improves Sleep Quality: As cycling improves sleep quality, it indirectly promotes relaxation. Better sleep means the body is better rested and more capable of handling stress, leading to a more relaxed state during waking hours.

In summary, cycling’s ability to encourage relaxation is multifaceted, combining physical, mental, and emotional elements. By incorporating regular cycling into one’s lifestyle, it’s possible to cultivate a more relaxed state of being, beneficial for overall health and well-being.


Please watch

Here’s a couple of links to groups I like. Hopefully, they’ll encourage you to start riding a bike, no matter your age.

Cycling for those aged 70+(opens in a new tab)


Solitary Cycling(opens in a new tab)


My bike:

A Rockhopper by Specialized. I purchased it November 2021 from Venture Out in Guntersville; Mike is top notch! So is the bike. The ‘old’ man seat was salvaged from an old Walmart bike. Seat replaced with new one from Venture Out.


What I’m listening to:

NONFICTION

Creative writing craft books:

Secrets to Editing Success by K. Stanley and L. Cooke

Amazon abstract:

The Creative Story Editing Method

SECRETS TO EDITING SUCCESS teaches you how to become an exceptional story editor. Whether you’re editing your own story or are an editor wanting your clients to succeed, this book shows you how to make all stories better.

In SECRETS TO EDITING SUCCESS, you will learn how to structurally edit a manuscript starting by evaluating at the story level and then focusing at the scene level, resulting in actionable advice.

SECRETS TO EDITING SUCCESS shows you the fastest, most comprehensive route to a successful story edit. You’ll discover the Fictionary Story Editing process and use the 38 Fictionary Story Elements.

Give your draft a creative story edit, so it outperforms the other great books being published today. Use SECRETS to EDITING SUCCESS to edit any novel into a bestseller.

Praise for Secrets to Editing Success

“One of the most frequent questions a novelist asks is “Does my draft contain a story?” Stanley and Cooke have written a practical guide that shows you how to answer that question. Secrets to Editing Success gives you actionable advice and a process to edit and revise your novel so that you can take your novel draft and turn it into a publishable book.”

Grant Faulkner, Executive Director of National Novel Writing Month

“Secrets to Editing Success is every editor’s dream. Whether you’re a new author reviewing your first book or professional editor, this is without doubt, the most comprehensive and detailed guide to editing I’ve ever had the pleasure of reading. This book will hold your hand, explain, clarify and give you step by step instructions for editing your novel. Paired best when using the incomparable developmental editing software Fictionary, this guide will change your editing life. Read it. Immediately.”

Sacha Black, Rebel Author Podcast

Blinkest summaries

None today.

Podcasts:

FICTION

Novels:

Listening to a novel draft I’m editing.

Blinkest fiction book summaries:

None today.

Music:

None today.


Here’s a few photos from previous riding adventures: